Journal Entry for August 19, 2007
its been a long while. All,I want is to feel my family cares about me the way I care about them. I worry about them. I want to make sure they …
is feeling Bad
post tramatic disorder I guess u call it. I've been living daily of flashes and fear of doctors and getting help. I cant trust the system. I know Im in great need of medical attention.but i relive the trama of mistreated and left in pain for months. Being on state funded HMO. I was told Im not treated the same being state pays for me and they get less. I was refused a blood test to prove something was wrong with me. But i was left home in pain so severe from a lazerated gal bladder for 1/2 yr.
its been a long while. All,I want is to feel my family cares about me the way I care about them. I worry about them. I want to make sure they …
I havent been to this site for sometime. It felt good getting things that have been held up inside me for so long out,but at the same time, It will …
Its another day. We all have our own story. We are all Gods children. We are all unique.And we are all brother and sister. So we all have so much in …
I was on this site last nite about same hour as now. I had no clue what I was doing or where this would take me. I didnt realize I almost wrote a …
in 1971 I was in an accident. A city bus hit me while on a bicycle. I had a head injury among other stuff. I dont recall the hospital stay at all or …
I have PTSD to such an intense level. I cant even get help from a doctor.I go into flashes of being horrible vitimized by the medical profession ,I can only see that replaying over and over knowing if I dont get to a doctor soon I wil die. My body is sick. Ive had this since 1990. My tears and flashes go on severaltimes aday. I try not to show it when people r around me. But when im alone. Im a wheck,I get anxious, afraid,and the more I know I need a doc,the worse I get.