kilikie's Journal

I have been pondering "LIFE" for the past few weeks..and how things and people change the outcome of certain situations or cause for new obstacles to form..and just how everything right down to a rabiit running across the road in front of the car can be life changing..BUT..woven into the mix of this is how it is suppose to be at this time..I have been doing a lot of "searching" withen, without..here there..In a car in a plane in the sun in the rain..LOL ( jk) and I have been expanidng my mind horizons thoughts and perception of all aspects of MY life and the point in which I am at NOW. In the past few days I have had some insidences occur that have had to make me really step away from the BIG PICTURE and look at the finer details and I have had to make some decisions that have been really hard to do. But by doing this I have also had thoughts come into my mind that I am sure are not my own but a fine blend of teachings I have incooperated over time..and I have had to slow down and just realize that I have to do what is best for ME and my Family and not try to make everyone around me happy. It is great I can add to their happiness but it is not my responsibilty to souly provide them with happiness. And if my life takes a turn in a different dircetion in which theirs does or they expect it too... Then that is the way IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE. and I firmly Believe that God will make sure that IT IS ALL JUST HOW IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE..

I don't even know if what I had said makes any sense but it's just what I am trying to convey more to myself ..and I don't write journal entries on here really to impress anyone I write to speak what my mind thinks..so if this sounds confusing it very well might be. LOL

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