rathbuns5’s Profile

About Me

I'm 38 yrs old. I have 5 children. I was with my first husband for 10 yrs. In that time my depresion/bipolar really started to take hold. I went most that time untreated but was self medicating first with alcohol then eventually with cocaine. When every thing came to a head, instead of helping me get proper medical care my first husband threw me out and divorced me. I walked away from that divorce with only my personal things and $15, 000 in debt. My step kids and own son chose to stay with their father, and for good reason, I was homeless, suicidal and addicted to cocaine. I spent a year couch hopping and trying to find new ways to numb and never wake up. Instead God sent me a wonderful man who took my hand and walked me back into the land of the living. He has givin me two beutiful boys one is 3 the other is 2. My oldest son who came to live with us 3 yrs ago is 18 and just graduated HS. My oldest two are actually step children from my first marriage and are 22 and 20. I raised them I concider them my own. I have been clean and sober for about 5 yrs now. Right now I dont recieve treatment for anything. I just take one day at a time, say alot of prayers, and stay in constant check of my triggers.

Interests

camping, fishing, gardening, photography, scrapbooking, and painting. I love working with children, I hope to be strong enough soon and provide foster care for at risk youth. Our ultimate goal will be a ranch for troubled kids, which, will also include animal therapy and rescue. At least that is the general idea and still growing.