amy4's Journal

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Hope this here helps some:)
Sometimes I read other people's posts on here and I get so frustrated because I just want to hold their hand and talk them through their panic attacks. I just want them to know that there is no medical condition causing this. There is no real fear. They are only fearing fear. What if during a panic attack (and I know how difficult it is to think clearly during an attack) but what if you said (to yourself or outloud) "What the hell am I scared of? Why am I being so dramatic?" And just kind of dissect what it is that is scaring you. It's nothing. Nothing is scaring you but yourself. You start going "oh my God I'm dying, oh my God what was that sensation?, oh my God I can't live like this"...and so forth until you have completely got your body in such a frenzy that it don't know what to do...does it sit? does it walk? does it run? Your body is now freaking out like what the hell do you want me to do? Your body, mind, and nerves are so sensitized at the moment that everything sense is on hightened alert. You hear things louder, you smell things better, you see things clearer. That crying baby and those screaming kids that are on that last nerve and about to send you into a screaming fit of anger...that's sensitized nerves. Once you realize that YOU are scaring yourself, your nerves are sensitized, anxiety is causing your body to feel pains or heart beats you normally wouldn't feel, and you take control back of your life and mind then things will slowly return to normal. Not over night, not next week. I have went through this time in my life. And at times I still struggle. But I don't let it scare me anymore. If there is something I want to do then I just do it, deal with the panic/anxiety, and once my brain sees that I'm not running, I'm not being a wussy then it stops trying to bluff me. For instance, you want to go shopping but you're too scared and you keep putting it off and you keep talking yourself out of it. Just do it. Just go in the store and accept all those feelings. You feel dizzy? Just keep going. Don't run out. You feel off balance and you're walking a little funny? Keep on walking. Accept those feelings and do NOT add 2nd fear to them. Do you realize people pay alot of MONEY to get high and feel those feelings you are fighting and making 10 times worse by fighting them? LET THEM WIN. Give in and say "ok you win panic" and stop being scared of panic. Learn to accept those feelings and stop letting them scare you. And the only way to start doing that is to go do what it is that is scaring you. Face your fears. I'm facing one of mine in the morning. Driving in traffic. I absolutely hate driving in traffic. But, I can't sit home forever and not work. I have to do it. And I will be uncomfortable at first. And it might take me a couple weeks but eventually my brain is going to say.."this isn't so bad, I was sending out all those panic signals for no reason". Then I will have crossed another hurdle and be that much further to recovery. All I'm saying is to take that leap of faith. It seems so scary but if you just take that leap you will see that there is nothing on the other side that is going to kill you. And at times the panic seems so bad that you wish it would kill you. Is that how you feel? Just kill me already? Then tell it to kill you! What do you think will happen? What if you just threw your hands up in the middle of that store and said "screw it just go ahead and kill me panic because I'm tired of this damn life now" and you gave up being scared of it? Try it. You'll be pleasantly surprised of the outcome. There's only one way to know. Grab some courage and JUST DO IT! PLEASE do not take this post as heartless or that I do not understand because I DO! I've been there. I've wanted to go to the mental hospital. I have walked laps around and around my house because my body just don't know what to do with all that energy I created. I totally sympathize and understand your panic attacks. So please, do not take this post as me not caring or understanding. This is my post on how I am overcoming panic without medications and it is working. Hoping you have a panic free day. God bless!

Anytime, just keep hanging in there...God loves you and so do we.