rutowsle's Journal

I tried to call my niece Hanna tonight. Since my siter and her husband got divorced I haven't known how to get a hold of her. But now I know her number and I will call her as much as possible. Even to just leave messages to let her know how much I love her. I had a dream the other night that I got to see her and she ran into my arms and we both sobbed so heavily I felt it physically when I woke up. I miss her so much. She is such a beautiful little girl, so innocent. I just want to be an aunt to the little girl that I came to love and know as my niece!! She's mine, I love her as my niece and nothing less! She's a beautiful little red head full of spunk and fire. I want her to know me even if its as a family friend and not her aunt. I just miss her so much. I love my nieces and nephews and I wouldn't waiste my time otherwise. Hannah is soo sweet and such a beauty. I have to try everyday to get her grandparents to answer the phone. I just want to see my niece. I can't stand to cry for her anymore I have to make an effort to make it happen... I just love her too much to let her go.