It's so odd to go back and read my past entries. My abortion seems like a different lifetime. Christmas time was hard because thats when I would have been due. Brian also made it clear that he didn't agree with abortion but agreed that it was the best choice for me to make under the circumstances. May 8th came and went and I was so busy I didn't bat an eye. I look back now and still regret and I know I always will but I don't know how things would have turned out if I had tried to carry to term. I know I'm in the best place that I've ever been but could it have been better? I always wonder if I'm a bad person because of what I've done. But who's opinion matters most? Mine or everyone else's?