stanzzy's Journal

It's been such a long time that I write on here, life has been so busy lately and I think in many ways that is a good thing.  Not so much for just the mere fact that I have so much going on in my life but because I am feeling like slowly but surely I find it a little easier to control my thoughts and emotions...still, you are the only ones I will ever tell how hard it still is for me to cope with my dad's passing and not to mention my feline friend of Columbus.  I browse through their pictures from time to time and feel the tears start to form and I try and hold back but maybe it is better to just let them out!

Although life has been a little easier the challenge to get through the memories without one single tear or feeling of sadness is always very much present!  I spend a lot of my time with mom and taking care of her and we always talk about the things that were good and bad with dad so I think that also helps me to deal with my feelings.  Dad was the strongest man I have ever known and dad I want you to know that I still miss you and I will always love you!!!  All in all life is what it is and I think everyday I can get through it just a little easier at a time...baby steps.