hysteria75's Journal

So what I'm about to write about really has nothing to do with any of the communities on here, but I figured I'd throw it out there anyway. It's about what's on my mind as of late.

Basically I'm having some major guilt issues tonight. As I've mentioned in previous entries, I've wronged a close friend, and she and I haven't spoken in almost a year. I can't really say I feel toooo bad about that, because she had changed a lot prior to that, and I feel not having her in my life has been a blessing. But still, I can't help but feel incredibly guilty about what I did.

But do I really feel guilty? Or do I just hate the fact that someone out there doesn't like me?

So about two years ago, I started having an affair with a male friend (he had a girlfriend at the time, I was single). It was very complicated, but strictly sexual. I told some people about it, including the now former friend. The now former friend and this guy have a conversation.....and now I'm on bad terms with him because I told people.

So basically I'm feeling bad tonight because I can't stop gossiping...even about myself.