tkdchick's Journal

Read this if you wanna know my story:

 I think I've finally figured out for sure what started my depression. I thought about it long and hard yesterday, and now it makes sense.My story starts this way: In 7th grade, I didnt care much about grades, I was really shy and was pretty much a follower. I had really, REALLY low self-esteem. But the summer I had after that was one of the best summers I ever had! I went to LOADS of summer camps and went to ontario to visit my family, and met a bunch of new people. That really boosted my self-confidence and by then I knew I was really a worthwile person who could accomplish whatever I wanted to. In 8th grade, thats when I said "I'm gonna change my life and make it amazing", and I DID! I dumped my old, really bad and abusive friends and found new ones, my grades were all higher than 90%, and that was the year I found out I really really loved taekwondo, and also the year I foud out I could sing! I sang in 2 talent shows that year. I also went to an acting camp earlier in the summer, so I did more acting, and found out I was a really talented actress. I never had accomplished so much in one year. That was also the year where I joined the leadership team and the demonstration team in Taekwondo. During the summer, I wanted to do as many summer camps I could, and my best one was a camp for musical theatre. I did a big solo, and it went really well.At the beginning of 9th grade, I was like, okay, this year I'm gonna do tons of TKD and get really fit, I also wanna join the school choir and do some sewing (which I had done before.) I was sure that this year was going to be the best year of my life. By november, my schedule was packed full. A typical day would go like this: I would go to school, come back home, go jogging and work out, do about 2 hours of homework, go to taekwondo, and if I had time, go on msn and practice my singing. I was going to bed at 12:00 and waking up at 6:00 almost every day, even sometimes during the week-end. I was ADDICTED to succes! It was my adrenaline. I also had really good friends in my school at the time. My life was PERFECT. And then, one day, everything started going wrong. My friends had a big fight, I saw that my grades had dropped, and stuff began to get bad. I had also stopped taking these pills i had for hormones a while before I "crashed" and I was finally feeling the effect. I got lazier and lazier, and more and more depressed. Its been 3 months since my "crash". Now I'm trying to get back on track and start doing better, but I learned a lesson during the process. Do EVERYTHING in moderation. Thats my story! woah, that was long XD 

Btw, thats probably not EXACTLY what happened, because I cant really rememberwhen everything happened exactly, but its pretty close to it.