ashberry's Journal

wow,

i find myself happy with life but still sexually stressed. Man im just hoping to find someone who will love me with my hep c. a long time friend did something today that fucking made me upset and hurt at the same time. we were at in and out getting snacks and i asked him if i could have a sip out of his soda cup. he said no. i knew what it was holding him back. so i pulled him aside and low and behold. he was afraid of my hep c getting on the cup. what ever. fick life sometimes. i need a guy. i am so lame. acting all cool every day. faking a smile and trying to be a regular person. how do i be a normal peoson with an abnormal soul. eventually my true colors show and my falts will be unvailed. oh well. perhaps this is my punishment for being so careless, shooting up and fucking around with shit. i'll live.

 but it was a good day today.it was my brothers 19th b-day (not till the 11th but we celibrated today cause of the weekend) i get him a misfits shirt. it was really fun we took lots of picuture