I am Getting Better
November 6, 2008 10:17am
I went to AA again last night. It was an all womens' meeting. I loved it! I am learning so much. I know that the program is going to work …
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About Me
I'm 26 years old, a mommy and married. I work full time as a secretary in higher education.
Interests
My son, pets, reading, the outdoors, Tori Amos
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sweetsunflowergirl changed their mood to Bad 9:09am
Thursday
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sweetsunflowergirl gave dreamingtree a Hug 9:56am
Hope you are doing better today.…
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sweetsunflowergirl replied to their request for advice about Some Days, I Just Can't Do This in the Alcoholism support group 9:55am
Just wanted to say thank you...yet again you guys were successful at putting my mind at ease. I know…
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Tonight
October 24, 2008 9:32am
Not much to say today, made it through last night without drinking. Tonight my friend is coming to visit; she does not drink so it should be good for …
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One Day...
October 22, 2008 9:44am
Okay, so I didn't drink last night! Yay me. I'm not going to lie and say it wasn't hard. It was. Not agonizing, but hard. One of my …
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Hang in there... not sure what has happened... but just know you will be okay. I spent a year trying to decide if I was an alcoholic or not.... all that wondering and trying and hoping... was exactly what I needed to go through to get me where I am now. It's all a part of the healing... you will get there!
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Thanks sweety.. Flowers for a beautiful day:)
I’m With You
Hello, I understand exactly how you feel! It is the same for me....I am so proud of myself when I don't drink, and then I'll "slip" and take that first drink, and bam!, I'm right back where I started. for me, it's all about fear, depression, being lonely and alone, stress.....pick or choose any one, that is why I drink. My co-workers and peers don't know of my issue, but my family does, and it has caused so many problems and pain! Two nights ago, I actually had my first car accident....I had taken Ambien, and was drinking! Nearly totaled my beautiful car....this, for me, was a mjor wakeup call. I am now on meds for depression and anxiety, seeing a therpist, and about to attend meetings. I am proud of myself for doing something about this, because I know it will have a positive impact on my family.....and the rest of my life! Good luck to you....you, too, are headed in the right direction!!!
I’m With You
Reading your posting reminded me of myself a year ago when I thought I was helpless & would be drinking forever that or die. We only have one day at a time you know I can tell you this now. Sneak a peek at my October journals if you want to see unmanageably! All this will pass if you lean on your concept of an HP and depend on your sponsor next time you are in the parking lot of that bar...Sometimes we have to make it one hour to one hour. If you ever need to talk I am here.
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There are others. Topamax seems to be one that helps many (www.mywayout.com) and my friend was on Chantix to stop smoking and she's a drinker and said it stopped all her cravings.
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Close Alcoholism
Had my first drink at age 13; was drinking heavily by age 22. Alcohol controls my life and I wish I could forget that it exists.
Treatments
- AA Meetings Somewhat Helpful
- Finally decided to give it a try, and it really does help.
- Campral Not Working
- Odd as it may sound, this medication only made me want to drink more.
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- Staying sober for a day or two is something I must work hard at. Finally I will allow myself to have one drink and I will be off wagon again.
- Sleep Somewhat Helpful
- I am sleeping better since my doctor put me on Klonopin.
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- It's hard, but my willpower is getting stronger, especially as I am building a support network.
Close Insomnia
I cannot unwind or relax enough to go to sleep at night. I toss and turn for hours. If I do manage to fall asleep, it is a light sleep in which I have vivid and disturbing dreams, and I will wake up after only an hour or two. Been for a sleep lab and they found nothing wrong with me.
Treatments
- Ambien Working / Worked
- Been on 10 mg/night for 2 yrs except during pregnancy. Works but never remember anything from during the night. HIGHLY addictive, can no longer sleep w/out it.
- Melatonin Not Working
- Wanted to try a natural remedy instead of a prescription, had no luck with this
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- Once my doctor got me on Klonopin for my anxiety my insomnia literally disappeared.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I realized the effects of this disorder on my life before I even knew it had a name. My obsessive thoughts are very troubling to me and my inability to rid myself of them has caused much depression in my life.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Did not work in the past, but I suspect that that was my own fault. Will be entering therapy again this week.
- Lexapro Not Working
- I have been on so many different meds that I don't even remember them all. This had no effect on me.
- Luvox Somewhat Helpful
- My mind was slightly more quiet when I was on this, but difference was not noticeable enough to convince me to keep taking it.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- My symptoms are still bad even though I take it...when I do not take it, they are worse.
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