lwells035's Journal

just binge ate the worst i have ever done in a LONG TIME and it's really depressing. To top it off i've taken the last couple days off of exercise, i am pmsing, and ate horribly this weekend because my boyfriend was in town!

today i felt relaly hungry in general but if i did, i ate and never deprieved myself so i dont get why i binged?? i like felt the need and WANTED IT! i would come sit down, eat what i had gotten, and then go back and get more! i even distracted myself calling my bf and then calling my mom and telling her i was binging and couldnt control myself. it was hard because she tells me to go somewhere and distract myself but she hasnt ever dealt with this before and i feel like i cannot stop. like this aniexety and not satisfied at all :( it's always peanut butter and carbs...she says maybe i need it because i havent eaten enough earlier this week or pms but i have been keepin ga food log for my doctor and have eaten about 2500 each day and binge at other days this past week as well. it's so depressing!

B: cheerios and banana

L: chicken breast pita (lettuce, spinich, tomato, olive, mushroom, pickles, honey mustard)

    baked lay's chips

S: turkey jerky

    celery with peanut butter

D: chef salad (ham, turkey, cheese, dressing, and lots of veggies)

S: puppy chow (like 3 servings)

    2 reeses bunnies (200 cal each)

    3 bowls of cereal

    100 cal oreo pack dipped in peanut butter

    100 cal chips ahoy pack dipped in peanut butter

    jello dessert with vanilla pudding

    jello pudding pie with whipped cream and strawberries

i had a binge of about 2700 calories...so for my day thats like 4000-4500 calories?? my mom says its abnormal that i estimate how many calories i ate after a binge...but i mean i am keepin  a food log so it's hard not to!!