lwells035's Journal

I'm mad at myself because I ate so much yesterday specially at night before bed. I was full and went on a mini binge fest eating crap because I was frustrated and pissed. After realizing what I was doing I felt like complete shit from knowing what I did and from eating so much. I don't know what I did it. I feel like I've been wanting to just eat whatever lately...maybe it's the weather change. I want to do that now I have just been in a weird blah mood. I feel like crap because I just ate fast food and I know I'm going to eat an unhealthy dinner and dessert for my date tonight, and I'm taking today off from excercising so I feel guilty. I was watching random crap on youtube and somehow came to a video of all these girls who wanted to be skinny and stuff. It kinda was scary because I feel like this desire to stay slim...like an addiction. I eat plenty...trust me, and indulge in sweets, and do not purge or anything. I think I just have an addiction to working out to balance it out and trying to eat healthier food minus when I eat all my icecream and sweets.

I feel like my hemoglobin is dropping again too tho because I have felt very irritable and tired. I get about 8 hrs a night yet I want to go to bed at 9 and could def take afternoon naps which is how i used to feel when i fell into my slump.