lwells035's Journal

ate okay...well anything is better than yesterday. i really need to NOT binge tomorrow for sure because this week it seems like its been an every other day sort of battle. like everyone else i wanna not even think about it! i hear friends talk about how they are hungry because they had a light lunch, yet they still seem to eat as much or less than i do at dinner. i mean, when i see i had a light lunch maybe i feel like that means i can eat more at dinner so i take full advantage of it or snack extra later on i dont know but obviously i still dont have a healthy relationship with stuff. like even after dinner tonight i had dessert and was content but still just went back to the pantry to eat some cereal before bed like i usually do because i knew i hadnt eaten much. cant i just accept i was a cow yesterday and prolly didnt NEED to eat as much but i ghuess its good i wasnt restricting...trying to be positive here. i just felt like a cow today because my jeans feel tighter on me and my legs and stuff feel so much thicker and my abs are def not defined like they were. i feel like im putting so much pressure on myself to stay on track and not let myself go that i almost do it and self-sabatoge myself because i think about it too much!

B: pb jelly banana sandwich

S: cantelope

L: sandwich, tomato soup, yogurt

S: laffy taffy, strawberries, and 100 cal muffin pack

D: grilled chicken salad with crossaint roll, some chips n salsa

S: apples with cinnamon and yogurt with granola, large bowl of cereal

 like 2800-2900? i averaged my days and this week ive consumed like an average of a lb a day...good lord haha

workout: run 4.5 miles, bike 4.5 miles, walk 2 miles