lwells035's Journal

Well it's the end of day two after my last binge and I am happy I have done well so far. When I did have my binge the other night tho I felt I had hit an all-time low/breaking point and called my parents for help. I told them what had happened and everything I had and that I wanted help NOW! Yesterday I called the dr who has been dealin with me lately with my anemia and stuff becasue she knows my history with everything the best. She said she is going to call a consuelor friend and ask her advice to see who she recommends me seeing or talking to. She thinks I may just need to talk to someone with everything I have gone true and stuff, this was after she questions if I threw up after I ate or something, which I dont but it still bothers me that she doesnt truely believe me and is like waiting for me to say I do and magically think thats been my problem all along. Well...it isn't and there is definately something there whether it's mental and all in my head, or having to do with my anemia and other crap, or my body needing it...whatever it is I don't know and want to find out and be freakin normal again. BUT at least I am making steps to get there I suppose...

I ate good yesterday...actually prolly less calories than normal and I worked out a lot, but I think I ate less because of my binge the night before my body probably wasn't as hungry as it normally would have been so I tried to be normal today to get back on track to avoid anohter binge or something, but I did over-eat but whatever it's okay...

B: oatmeal with apple

S: hershey chocolate candy

L: sandwich, chips, yogurt with fruit, 100 cal muffin pack

S: cereal with banana and yogurt, and another bowl of cereal

D: alot of chips n salsa, grilled chicken sandwich with black beans and veggies

S: large icecream cone and peice of chocolate

and just now had strawberries, blueberries, blackberries with yogurt n some special k cereal

officially done and full!

workout: run 2 miles, walk 2 miles, 1 hr body attack class