lwells035's Journal

Today was a bad day for me eating wise...It all started last night I guess. I went to visit one of my friends that had just gotten back from out of the country and was super sad bc as soon as she came back her bf dumped her. I had eaten healthy and was full earlier, but when I got overe there she knows how much I love chocolate and had brought me back a box from there. After a couple of bites it was amazing and I ended up eating the whole box on the way home and then a pb sandwich after i got home. I always do that, like I start eating unhealthy and am like eh screw it and end up eating pb it's weird and frustrating. I am almost out of my pb jar so I prolly shouldnt buy anymore even tho I hate elminating food totally like that instead of just having better self-control.

Well I ended up going to bed without going TOO terribly crazy so I was okay with that and starting over the next day. I started out so well and as soon as I got off work I was super motivated to go workout and so went to my parents house to get an afternoon snack to get me going for my workout I had planned at the gym. Well I ended up binge eating and feeling really shitty. I made myself go to the gym, walked in did 2 min on the elliptical and thought "screw this I dont want to be here...I tried...and really want some fried chicken tenders instead" so i took my fat kid ass to get just that and took my day off of exercising. geez idk why I do stuff like this. After all that I went to the mall and got some shoes I had been wanting...spent some time with the roomie and ate more dinner even tho I wasnt hungry. I need to lose my all or nothing mind set and have some freakin self control bc right now im sick of adding up and seeing im eating 4000 calories or more every other day on CRAP!

B: oatmeal with apple

S: 2 hershey almond kisses

L: turkey and cheese cobb salad and blueberry yogurt

S: 2 bowls cereal with yogurt and blueberries

   8 turtle supreme chjocolate chip and oatmeal raisin cookies

   raisin canes chicken tenders, fries, and toasted garlic bread meal

D: pb and banana sandwich and cheetos

S; oreo cakesters, 100 cal hostess muffins

thats alotta fat intake but wahtever ugh hopefully i can wake up and have a super good workout and start over :)