lwells035's Journal

took a break recently with my boyfriend. i figured maybe doing so would relieve some of my stress. i figure there's certain things that i can't control in life like the amount of work i have to do to make money, the school i gotta go through, and my health to a certain extent...but there are things i can change like relationships with people. i dont need any extra stress and frustration and getting upset over the same stupid shit in my life each week so i decided to take a braek from it before we are together a full year and make sure this is what i want and need in my life. right now i am still torn and there's so much running through my mind i cant even type it all to get it out so i have just been avoiding it and thinking about it as much as possible. i know that's not my solution, but for now it is.

other than taht i got a gym membership i have been using daily and love it! i am most excited for their classes they offer, specially the weight lifting one because i def do not make myself lift weight well when its jsut up to me doing it.

i have been over-eating but i wouldnt say a horrible horrible binge like i had the other week.

other than that i have been taking this break from school to enjoy time with friends whcih i have done. the other ngiht i went out to a friends party and drank and jsut enjoyeed myself like any normal college student would and shold and it was nice. sometimes i honestly wouldnt drink not only because i hated waking up and feeling like crap the next morning, but also because i was afriad id get fat and gain from it which is a valid worry but not to the extent that it bothers me. i used to never care about that like i do now which just shows how much stuff like that takes over my life and shouldnt?