lwells035's Journal

So I haven't been on in a while because I was out of town visiting my boyfriend and then I had been studying (more like cramming) for two finals as soon as I got back. My trip was amazing! It was our 11 month anniversary so we had alotta fun just getting to be together, eat good food, shop, and relax a little. After I got back I think I hit a low because of the let down of coming back and leaving him, and knowing the stress of my test I had to study for the next day. I didn't know it'd be possible to binge at an airport...but it is! haha gah what sucks is it was my own money that I had to spend, but I at least got stuff I was really wanting and craving. I got there really early and had alraedy had breakfast...then craved a cinnamon roll...and then it just kinda went crazy from there. After the airport I thought I was done with my binging and went on a run before I went to my parent's to study for the night. I figured I could eat my normal dinner/dessert and move on from earlier...yeah...didn't happen! I went totally crazy eating and couldn't feel satified. I ended up consuming around 7000 calories for Sunday. The next day i felt the urge to continue my binge but didn't let myself. Yeah, I still ate more than usual but it wasn't nearly as bad!

I figured i would have gained at least 3 lbs from my weekend of eating and then the binge, but I still am the same which is really weird to me, my doctor, and my parents. I honestly wonder what weight I would be if I didn't binge eat or consume over what I feel I should be eating...

I went to the doctor yesterday and my iron levels have dropped back down again so I am going to have tos tart getting iron through an IV again here soon which sucks...I just don't want to do this the rest of my life. I had a melt down Sunday night because I feel like my hair is falling out or thinning...my hair used to be SO FREAKIN THICK and now its like half of what it was I think because my body isnt getting the nutrients from my food that it needs. We are about to test for a mal-absorption issue with me because they think I am able to eat the amounts of crap that I do and not gain or take in iron from my foods because of that...

guess we will see! hope everyone is doing amazing and staying strong!