Journal Entry for July 17, 2007
cant seem to stop eating. and its showing. SHIT.
is feeling Bad
i love to dance. i live to dance for our god. im doing a bachelor of dance.
dancing.
cant seem to stop eating. and its showing. SHIT.
went into hospital last night had an anxiety attack. fricken scary.
the tears r swelling up...they have broken out...i want them to stop. out of control. alone. help.
i got asked by a dance teacher weather i was eating the other day cos apparently i look like ive lost weight or something. and well it was really out …
i asked a friend to go with me to a nutritionist today.
im regretting this decision now. i shouldnt have done it. im scared of the …
how are you?
Keep on truckin!
You are more than what the mirror dictates.... You are more than what your medical record thinks you are... You are more than what your parents have forced you to be.... How do you want to be remembered when you die? Not too many epitaphs about the poor lonely sad girl..... Be the change that you want to see in the world(Mahatma Ghandi) Be you, be true Jesus could have sat on the side of the road and layed his cross down and cried, feeling bad for himself whilst others through stones and words....but he didn't he walked. Helen Keller was born deaf and blind...she could have sat lonely and depressed in the corner....but she didn't she effected the world. Do today what you wish you could if you weren't sick. How many cancer patients do you hear finding a new lust for life. Being sick doesn't define you. Hurting yourself doesn't change you. Put down the knife, or whip or whatever it is that you punish yourself with and decide to be the person that you idolize. Write down a list what you have to do to get where you want to go, then break that down into smaller steps. What's first? I have no right to say this to a stranger, But I am you. I have been where you are I have felt your pain....and now, the pain is gone. I want this for you and I believe that you can live outside the box. Outside the definition that others have given you. I believe that you have the power to rise.
Keep up the fight. I'm with you.
hey! how is everything? hope ur ok :)
ive struggled with a mix of bulima, anorexia and over exercising on and off for the past 3 years. it has its moments where its kinda pretty much non existent and other times when it its there and i cant seem to lose it.