I did workout. My old Buns of Steel Fat Burner. Did the grocery shopping, picked up my clothes from the alterations place, ordered my hormones(I won't call it birth control anymore because I"m not having sex, its just hrt) put fuel in my car (ouch. ) I had shrimp for lunch, it was good. Just cold, cooked prawns cleaned/eaten over the kitchen sink. It was just three bucks, so yummo! I studied for an hour on my camera manual. Then watched Rachel Ray/Ellen. Then I made a batch of whole wheat brownies for my brother. I don't think he will like them. I also made some ground beef with veggies which he did not like. Oh well. You win some you lose some. I am still planning on yoga. Just in a couple of hours. Not at the very moment.
I just had an awakening kind of moment. I did not expect it. I was just journaling (as you can see) and my mother was downstairs and called up to me to come down and help her with something. Normally such a thing would cause me to be annoyed and feed my pain body. This time, I felt it, I was short and curt with her for only one word. Then I said, I will be right down, just a moment. Set my computer aside. And before I even opened the door to leave my room, I said Pain body you have to stay here I have to go help my mother. And then, I went downstairs and was nice and didn't even mind. And I messed up. I put bleach in without first diluting it with water. My mother, luckily, caught me in the act and said What are you doing! I said its just bleach. She then showed me how to do it right. I had forgotten. But the interesting part is that normally this kind of thing would send me into a tail spin but this time I just listened took it all in and didn't even apologize. She wasn't looking for an apology. She was just telling me how to do it without making wholes in the fabric from the bleach. So, now I know. And my pain body did not even make an appearance. I didn't feel angry, sad or embarrassed. No ego showing up either. wow. Thats some deep stuff that right there.
AlishaB