bklynbella64's Journal

   Well here goes my first entry.... I have no idea how to start so I guess I will start from the beginning.....

     When I was young I knew from the beginning I was different. I was a very open, honest, loving and very playful child that all said I was the beauty of the sun. W hen I was 12 ½ years old; I even remember the month and day. It was November 27th. I got my very first period. MY mom never really told me how it would come or how it would feel like. I was excited and scared at the same time. I told all my aunts and grandmothers. They were happy for me or as I thought! People that are close to you can be your friends and your enemies very easily. That is when everything in my life started too changed!    

 The first few months I have received my period normally. Every month about the same time; Then in February everything changed! My cycle was different. I didn’t have my period for two months. My mother said it was normal that every woman goes through the first year that way because your body was becoming use to having cycles. So for the first year I didn’t think anything was wrong.   

 After a year passed; I told my mom something was wrong that I didn’t get my period since February of the passed year. She and my father spoke to one another and said that I should visit a doctor. My mom being Italian and didn’t know much English at the time; went to her sisters to see what they would think to do. My aunts said to go to a women doctor. Being Catholic and Italian it was very hard to go there because I WAS very YOUNG and I WAS a VERGIN. My parents both decided to wait a few more months to see if it would regulate on its own. When July hit and nothing had regulated, I told my mom something must be very wrong. By that time; I started to gain weight, had a huge chest, had brown rings around my neck and thighs and started to get strange black hairs all over my face! YES! All over my face! My mom said it is normal that women; especially Italian women have facial hair and most of my female family members did have it.  BUT nothing compared to mine. In September; a 1 ½ years after getting my last period, I finally went to a doctor. 

   I went to one of the most popular doctors in my area. She basically had no idea what was going on!!! She was like okay I think the best thing for you to do is to bleach the hair and wait a few more years to see if it wills regulate on its own. HELLO!! Didn’t I already do that?? I was already turning 14 and I had only 4 periods with in 2 years!! I was freaking out and so was my mom.    

 When January hit, we went to another doctor. I don’t remember how or who recommended her but I am so happy I found her! The first day I went in her office she sat me down and told me to tell her everything. Like she was a friend! NO doctor has ever done that to me before. After we spoke for a good 2 hours she wanted to check me out so we did tons of blood work! I mean TONS!!! I felt like a pin needle holder prick away ppl! lol  

  After much testing and much weakness from that the blood work the doctor said that I had problems with my thyroids. She explained that these thyroids are part of my system that helps produce my period. Also, my harmonies were off. My female harmonies were less than my male YEAH men and women have the same hormones but one is higher to distinguish what your body needs. Mine I had a point more male than female. She said that I was very rare, and that they just discovered this problem with women and they need to make more research for it. However, she said I can take birth control to get my period. So I started taking the pill at 14 years old. As for the hair; I waxed every week. YES!! Hurt like a mother!  

After all these years and lots of research my doctor and her partner in the office told me a few weeks ago I have PCOS and I am not alone!! I was crying in the office. I’m not alone! Others have this problem! And there are other treatments to help it.   Now that I am 26 years old I finally know what is really going on with my body and I can do something about it. The doctors are waiting to do more test on me before I start on different medications and more explanations for me.     

So now I am here trying to find women that have PCOS like me and help out each other for support and I hope some day we can find a cure to this horrible problem that young girls and women have.