DarkWolfsLife's Journal

I don't know how much longer I can go on living like this... there is only one thing that I can think of that would make life even seem like its worth living for me and that is for me to get to talk to this girl... I don't know what I did wrong... she just desided she doesn't want to talk to me anymore... I felt feelings for her in a way I have nevr felt feelings for anyone before... and now I feel so empty... and life less... I'm still not sleeping... when I go to bed and close my eyes my mind fills with images of her and I can't help but cry knowing that I may never get to talk to her again... I'm loosing it... I don't think I can hang on to life much longer... I can't keep telling myself that life is worth living when everything around me is going to hell... I've lost all the will to live... I swear if something in my life don't go right in my life I will be dead within a few days... I just want to talk to her so badly right now... but meh its not like thats even possable... at this point I don't think I'll ever get to talk to her again... if I live to see new years... I may not have a place to live anymore... because I didn't work enough hours this month to pay rent because of all the medical shot the have me doing trying to figure out why I can't sleep...

but yeah this post is long enough... so I'll post more later...