monkeyraksha's Journal

Although things arent any better pain wise and i get very cross with myself i have noticed lots fo side effect with the tablets that i am taking. My clear thinking for a start and having to check myself to make sure it is right and then i get pins and neddles in both my feet. My ankles sweel up and notice that my written is awful and i wonder was ever is it coming to. I feel so cross with myself and still down and still cant movatiaive myself very much and everyting seems to take forever. I have also have a pain down the left side and when i reach out it hurts  my fingers are numb all the time so feeling the keys on the computer has become hard. I dont know all i seem to do is  moan   I just wonder what will happen and where will it end i know i dont want to spend the next 20 years of my life like this. We have some time away booked am i am wondering if am able to cope even with that but i know that the break away will do me good and to get away from the 4 walls. I seem to depen on hubby more and more anh he just wants he normal wife back which i cant bring back or dear.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!