comet's Journal

It seems like forever since I wrote. It is hard to believe that Elvin has been gone this long. We celebrated our 5th Thanksgiving without our dear son. We had a small dinner at my daughters and then I went to the grave to visit with Elvin. I wish more of my family could understand how I feel. But they couldn't possibly without having traveled this road themselves or at least coming along side of me as I travel this long and difficult journey. I had to put down one of my horses on the 14th he suffered from a neurological disiese and lost the use of his hind legs. I know that Elvin was with me after he had passed I walked into the barn and Elvins presence was all around me and as I walked by the radio to get a check for the vet gasping for air as I did.  Playing on the radio was a song Breath in Breath out everything is going to be alright. It was like my son had his arms wrapped around me and was just saying breath in breath out. That evening still questioning if there is a place after we pass not only for us but for our beloved pets that bring so much to us? I woke up hearing a voice telling me there are many mansions in my house. What peace that gave me as I now have the hope that there is a mansion for every living being when we leave this earth. As I begin this holiday season I am so thankful for my family and the memories that I have of holidays past. May Gods loving arms comfort and carry me threw Christmas my sons favorite holiday. God Bless all of you.

I love you so son.

In faith, hope and love. Pam