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Well I am not going to go threw with it as of now... Maybe in the future, we are going to continue to watch it. I just can not get the nerve right now.The only issue is if it goes it can damage my ovary more and they may have to take it with the cyst if it is to thin. And also it can make it harder for pregnancy. not as if I am planning to have any children anyways. They want me to start a pain management program, Which will also keep me out of the ER. For my migrains. I will have something at home to take if I have a problem. So that is good.
I only worry about addiction. I know there are alot of things to be addicted to. Ive never abused medication before because of my fear of taking pills to begin with. I have been on Lorazapam for many yrs and never had the feeling I wanted to take more. I have a few friends that are pill addicts. One is in a recovery program and is on Methadone and has to go to the clinic everyday. Her sister is not ready for recovery. She went to the ER last night to get pills, and they only offered her a shot of toradoll for her (so called headache) she didn't even have. She got the shot and they want you to stay for at least 20 min because of reactions to medication. She was about to leave knowing she was not going to get anything besides that from them when she had a SEVERE allergic reaction. It was so bad they had to place a breathing tube down her throat and several injections. She stayed in the hospital until this morning where they gave her a script for more pain pills instead. I would think afer an experiance like that, I would never want to take a pill again... Look where her pill seeking took her... To almost death.
I don't want her to know I will be getting these medications, because she will be stalking me for them. And I would never give any to her. I think it is better she does not know. She always wants to know my buisness. At first I thought it was because she cared about my health. But it was only to find out if they were giving me pills. I try to distance myself from her and ignore her calls now. But she just shows up. I tryed to push her away so I am not involved with her. But she keeps texting me. I don't know where I find these people... They flock to me I think.
Anyways, I am just rambling on about things that are on my mind.... So I will end for now... I hope to get some kind of sleep tonight. I was up till 8am this morning and finally fell asleep for a few hrs. Don't know what is going on.... Been later and later every night.. for about a week now...
