amazed!
July 2, 2008 5:42am
Well tuesday was a good day i was going to go to ceramics but we got there and they were BOOKED UP! and only open for like 3hrs so we are going on …
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BJ25
is feeling Bad
seen a kick ass fireworks show but got seriously sunburnt OUCH
About Me
My friends Call me B but BJ is ok too. married to a great man who i love more than anything in the world. i am 26 yrs old and a wonderful friend but i ask PLEASE NO FRIEND REQUESTS UNLESS WE HAVE SPOKEN FOR A WHILE IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW ME PLEASE PM ME OR SEND HUGS!!!!
Interests
Singing, dancing *yeah this fat girl can dance*, my computer *because i have more friends in my computer than in my actual life*, taking walks with the hubby, meeting new people i can click with, video games *yeah thats right im a gamer* nature/wildlife, photography, and just having a good time.
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i am only ok today
June 27, 2008 3:05am
Well i am only OK today because well lets see yesterday i woke up and couldnt see because my eyes were swollen shut. right now only one is and it …
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doing great today
June 25, 2008 8:19pm
well i finished my WRAP training.
http://www.copelandcenter.com/whatiswrap.html
WRAP is wellness recovery action plan. its a …
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"Friendship is the source of the greatest pleasures, and without friends even the most agreeable pursuits become tedious." I am so thankful to have you as a friend! Sorry you're sunburnt LOL
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Good Morning. Thanks for that. Hugz.
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I love to hug my friends. Especially my good ones. I am still formulating or thinking of an answer to your last email. Not sure I have a good one. I will have to pray on it.
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Sorry i haven't been there for you lately. I have been up and down. We went to Cath's parents in cornwall for a bit and been laying a laminate floor. chin up as kerry says to me.
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Hi sweety hopeyou are feeling better hun,i do realy like you plates and i like that frog,huggies for you hun,love your friend,carla...hugs...xxoo I'll allways be here for you honey...
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Goal End Date is Nov 30, 08 148 more days.Current Weight (Lbs)315days worked out (days)2 -
Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
i was told i was Bipolar and a while after i was put in the hospital for trying to kill myself. I have ups and down i will cry for no reason and be happy or really angry the next. i have depression kinda bad and i am a cutter if anyone knows what that is. sometimes i just dont want to get out of bed! and others i just feel like throwing something i hate it!!
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- just started it and it seems to be working keeping me pretty level
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- love the stuff it helps me sleep and if i have a panic attack it brings me down LOVE IT
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- it kinda helps to cry when i need to so i can get it out but if its a bad day its not going to help
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Sometimes it helps deep breathing is starting to work
- Lithium Not Working
- OMG i hated this stuff i didnt know when they put me on it that it could do so much to you YUCK!!
- Prozac Not Working
- it worked a little while but kinda wore off
- Seroquel Not Working
- Put me to sleep thats about it
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- seems to be working so far!
- Writing Working / Worked
- i just write what is going on and try to let it all out without yelling at someone else
- Zyprexa Not Working
- it worked for a while and then stoped working i stoped taking it about a month ago
Close Self-Injury
well on top of being bipolar i have been a cutter since i was about 9 i have scars that just wont go away its hard and scary but i dont know if i want to stop.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- been on it for a while now its not helping with the cutting
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- they said to try it and it should give the same sensation as cutting but i dont know where they get that because if feels NOTHING like cutting
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- kidna works if i can talk to some who will listen before i actually start to cut
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- it doesnt stop my cutting but it lets me get my feelings out
- Zyprexa Not Working
- it seems to be keeping me stable for the time being i hope it keeps up
Open Phobia
Type: Agoraphobia (fear of open spaces)along with bipolar and cutting i am also agoraphobic
Treatments
- Humex Not Working
- i am still trying to work this out it is getting harder and harder for me to leave the house everyday i try not to if i dont have to
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
i was molested by my brother when i was about 7-8 yrs old and suffer from PTSD because and my friends murder 5 yrs ago
Treatments
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- if i stay away from milk products like milk cheese and stuff i dont seem to have as much problems
- Colace Not Working
- took it when i was in the hospital didnt work at all i was taking a few everyday
- Librax Somewhat Helpful
- help a little but not much and when i was on lithium they took me off of it
Open Obesity
i have struggled with weight ever since my being molested when i was younger.i went from being pretty average to being 290lbs its SUCKS
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Somewhat Helpful
- i laid off sweets and white flour and went to wheat products. it helped a little but not enough
- Physical Exercise Considering
- started up walking and soon i might do weight lifting nothing to bad.....
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- tried it and it did NOTHING
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)along with Bipolar ptsd and agoraphobia i have BPD....no idea what that mean just yet.....
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- talking and venting helps a little so does writing. not much though
Open Depression
along with the bipolar i get depression pretty bad more often then the manic stage
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- made me very aggressive
- Effexor Not Working
- did nothing for me
- Lexapro Not Working
- nope nothing
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- keeps me in the now
- Prozac Not Working
- it only helps a little bit
- Seroquel Not Working
- helps me sleep and thats it
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- knowing i have support is ok but it doesnt help all the time
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- so far so good
- Writing Working / Worked
- helps me to get out my frustrations
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- seems to be working so far we shall see started it on 2-22-08
Open Anxiety
at home i am ok most of the time but when i leave the house i am overwelmed with anxiety
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- only work if i can calm down enough for it to work
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- works wonders i love the stuff
Open Infertility
me and my husband have been trying for 4 almost 5 yrs now and we cant get pregnant. we have not been tested yet, but i hope we can soon. if we can get tested then we can find out the problem
Open Gallstones
well i was told on friday (jan 4) that i have gallstones and i have to meet with a surgeon i am really scared about it. not sure what the DR will want to do i am sure i will have to have surgery!! had surgery on jan 14th
Open Sexual Abuse
well not much to tell my brother sexually abused me when i was about 7 or 8 didnt last very long but it still happend and it sucks it messed up my ideas about myself and the way i see myself but made it hard for me to get close to my hubby
Treatments
Open Bereavement
well i lost an aunt and uncle to suicide. my best friends was murdered shot to death in 2003 and a few months later i lost my Grandpa to cancer.. they a few yrs ago i lost my other grandpa. i am having the worse time getting over losing my friend. because of the way she was murdered...
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- helps but still hurts
- Music Working / Worked
- helps me release feelings that i keep pent up
- Prayer Working / Worked
- i believe God is watching over me and that the ones i love are with him..
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- my friends and family are the best
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- DS is wonderful for helping me with my problems
- Time Working / Worked
- its hard giving yourself time to grieve but it gets better with time
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I am not proud to say this but i weight about 315 right now. i come for a family of big people. i think my eating habits and lack of excercising is what is doing it the worse though. i want to get to at least 200 i dont have a time frame and i am looking for some help..
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Too Soon to Tell
- i cant do a whole lot because of weight and foot problems....
- Slim-Fast Not Working
- it was so gross and it didnt help me feel full at all
- Xenical Considering
- i am thinking about either taking this from my doctor or trying alli i dotn knwo yet
Open Female Sexual Issues
lately i find it harder and harder to have an orgasm and it if so frustrating for both Myself and my hubby. i sometimes have to fake it so he doesnt think its him. but we have finaly talked about it and he is very understanding about this!
Treatments
- Relaxation Not Working
- i cant keep my mind focused on what i am doing if we are having sex no matter how relaxed i am my mind wonders away and i cant keep focused
