Journal Entry for May 2, 2008
May 2, 2008 8:19pm
I'm way proud of myself today-- I feel so acomplished! Scout woke me up at about 6:15, but I convinced him to stay in bed with me until 7. …
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I don't do so well with saying who I am in one small paragraph! I guess I'm a grown-up now, which makes me really sad. I'm in school full time-- majoring in psychology but don't know what I want to do with it yet. I've got a beautiful mare that I just love-- riding horses is my passion. The other love of my life is Scout, my rescued golden retriever. Oh yeah, and my boyfriend is pretty great, too :o) I don't have many friends at home because I had some crazy teenage years, but I'm really close to my family (well, parents and sister, anyway). That's all I can think of at the moment. Except-- I LOVE the dave matthews band. I promise you, I'm a freak and it's great :o) I don't bite (well, I actually do, but not over the internet) so feel free to introduce yourself!
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You can send me a message on yahoo, if you've got it... suzkathryn
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Journal Entry for April 30, 2008
April 30, 2008 1:42pm
Had an appointment at the sleep disorder center today. It went really well. I hope they can figure something out. I was really …
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Journal Entry for April 29, 2008
April 29, 2008 9:56pm
Man, I have such a hard time with these! I want to keep it updated because times like now, when I have something to say, I wish the rest of it was …
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Journal Entry for March 31, 2008
March 31, 2008 10:00pm
I LOVE MY LIFE!!
I cannot tell you the last time I felt that, if I ever had. There are things that get to me now and then, but really, …
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Journal Entry for March 27, 2008
March 27, 2008 6:44pm
Doing better again. The next morning (after my last journal entry), Zach texted me and said, "Fuck Suzanne. I knew something bad …
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Thanks hon, it was nice and relaxing. How about yours ?
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Hi Firedancer, I'm Loie. I am a supporter. You need support? I am here for you. Had a Sister who had Eating disorder and a good friend too. I have been around for over 20 years doing Volunteer Counseling and Also just support. I am a survivor of Child abuse and have made it through and support others with all kinds of needs in all the support groups. I have experience in training and helping in several Volunteer Organizations. Have education background in Psychology and in Criminal Justice. Working on finishing my Degree in Psychology for a Professional Counseling Therapist I am here if you need support and someone to just listen to you. I am a good sounding board! Keep positive thoughts! someone who cares! Loie
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A new CD "A Meditation To Help With Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue" by Belleruth Naparstek is my new best friend. It's been 2 weeks listening (not trying, just listening) and I have a better attitude and calmness...EVERY DAY, even when in pain..There are no side effects (yep, i get em all, too), and it cost me under $20..
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Close Eating Disorders
My diagnosis is EDNOS because I have a mix of anorexic and bulimic symptoms. Been through hell and back struggling with this damn eating disorder. I had to update this because I was in recovery, but have slipped back again. Don't really know what to do-- lost my therapist, and this feels just so damn good. I'm back to eating very little, and am throwing up about 90% of what I eat. Somewhere in me I know that it's not good, but it's really making life feel better.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Considering
- In the past I did a support group thing at the eating disorder center here. It helped some, but I found myself just getting really competitive with the other patients.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Just one of several meds that I'm on. I think it helps with some of my really impulsive behaviors.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My most recent therapist was awesome, but she left to take another position elsewhere. I tried one other, and I didn't like her. It's just so hard to find new ones-- I've had easily 8 or more therapists in tha past.
- Residential Treatment Center Somewhat Helpful
- I was in rehab for close to 2 years. I only slightly mentioned my eating problems once or twice, but no one really picked up on the severity. The last couple months that I was in my step-down program, I went back into full swing of not eating and purging when I had to.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- It's somewhat helpful when I actually want recovery. But, now I don't really talk to them because I want to keep doing what I'm doing.
Close Self-Injury
I've become addicted to self-injury. I consider myself in full recovery (it's been over 8 MONTHS since the last time I cut!), but of course still think about it on a daily basis. I'd love more than anything to be able to help other people like me, because they pain they're going through just breaks my heart. Seeing other people in the place that I was helps me to remember the reasons why I love being in recovery.
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- Talking Working / Worked
- My best friend really carried me through some of my hardest times. She was recovering from cutting herself, so she understood what I was going through and how to help. Her patience with me when I called her in a panic at all hours was immensely helpful.
Open Teen Sexuality
Well... I'm a teen that likes sex! I'm in a committed relationship, and wouldn't want it any other way!
Open Military Families
I am the proud girlfriend of a soldier. He's stationed in Texas and scheduled to deploy again this December for another year. It's so hard to be away from my love!
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
I'm a vegetarian. I limit dairy because I'm lactose intolerant, as well.
Open Healthy Sex
Well... I like sex, and I want to be healthy.
Open Sexual Abuse
I'm just now beginning to put the pieces together about some childhood sexual abuse. I'm lost and confused about it all, and it scares me a lot.
Open Fibromyalgia
I hurt all the fucking time, and all I want to do is sleep. I hate this so, so much! I want my life back...
Treatments
- Lyrica Too Soon to Tell
- Just started on this... I hope it does something. As of now, it's just making me more tired.
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