RSmith's Journal

       hey all,  I know that I haven't written in awhile.  I have been finding myself extremely tired lately and taking a lot of naps.  i have also been trying to get out and walk during the day. 

      I went to see my family doc on Monday.  It was a stressfuk visit for me.  I found black spots on vagina awhile ago and just had them looked at Monday.  My GP thinks that it might be beign cancer.  I am being referred back to the gyno that was looking after my HPV for my pregnancy since she knows what is going on.  I do hope that my GP or the Gyno will refer me to a cancer doc to have a look at those black spots to ensure me that it wont be a problem during my pregnancy. 

      well I was able to get up for my trauma group yesterday.  it was very difficult because I am not sleeping properly right now and I am going off my meds again due to the pregnancy.  I think that this will be my biggest challengo to myself to really get a good grip on my emotions and moods and will force me ot use the techniques being taught in group. 

   I have been working on eating more lately.  I think that I am doing a good job.  I know that will still be a challenge for me to keep up my appetite and ensure that my little one is getting enough nutrients.

today is an exciting day for me.  I am going for my first ultrasound this afternoon.  I will find out exactly how far along I am, when my expected due date is and hopefully hear the heart beat today.   i am really excited for this to happen.