Journal Entry for October 14, 2008
I been feeling quite the same since i wrote my last entry but i hope to try to feel more better. I have to go out to get my mother's computer …
I like to help other people cope with their illnesses. Altogether threes really not much to say about myself except of the fact that I've dealt with a lot of anxiety and other obstacles in my life. I'm a real underachiever , nonetheless life goes on. Some days are bad , some are good. My birthday is October 20th.
I like watching hockey , baseball , socccer on tv , cross country skiing , snowshoeing , walking , watching different types of tv shows , listening to different genres of music on the radio and so forth.
James32 wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 4:39am
I been feeling quite the same since i wrote my last entry but i hope to try to feel more better. I have…
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I'm home.…
James32 commented on Whitewave54’s journal entry Rainy Days 2:12am
I know we get the rdf too much. lol…
James32 gave Whitewave54 a Prayer 2:09am
Thanks for the help.…
I been feeling quite the same since i wrote my last entry but i hope to try to feel more better. I have to go out to get my mother's computer …
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My life is a joke. I think that others are laughing at me all the time. I feel so stupid for quiting school and always will. I have LOW self …
The bed wetting still continues to ravage my mind. I really wish this problem would clear up. I know its the overflow urinary incontinence …
I haven't been feeling well this past few weeks. I had to be brought to hospital in a ambulance not long after waking up. My heart was beating …
Whitewave, Kit and Holly
From Mom Kit and Hol
Hiya, Love you my friend, how are you today? D x x
Well done - how have you managed to stay sober? I am asking because I am really struggling with drinking at the moment and my counsellor has finished our sessions on Thursday.
Good goals Neil Keep it up! You'll feel better soon Mom
I was diagnosed with a anxiety disorder called obsessive compulsive disorder ( OCD ) at age 18. I have social anxiety as well. Some of my symptoms included cleaning , washing , hoarding counting rituals and double-check things repeatedly. I still get a bit fidgety. Objects would have to be a certain way or until it felt right for me. Since then i been on many medications. Some worked well some never worked well. I've been analyzed by several doctors. Some helpful and some not so helpful.
I have had to deal with my keratoconus since i was 31 years old. I have keratoconus in just my left eye for now. Im after having so many different eye examinations done so far. I wear prescription glasses to help me deal with my keratoconus. My optometrist told me that im totally reliable on my right eye with the help of presciption glasses and that i was born with keratoconus.
I used to and still do get really disruptive and strike out on objects. I've done some damage to my parents apartments and my own apartments since i was 18 years old. I used to throw and/or destroy objects. It sounds childish i know but something has to snap in me. Its hard to put in to words what triggers my anger and agitation. I had been in anger management therapy for a few months 2 years ago. My psychologist ( now retired ) did help me find different ways to deal with my anger episodes.
I started binge drinking alcoholic beverages since i started at age 18. Almost every time i drank i ended up in some kind of trouble. I'm 32 years old now and haven't had a drink since October 29th , 2006.
I started smoking at age 18. I have smoked on and off at times. I haven't had a smoke since January 2007.
I was first diagnosed with high cholesterol at age 30. I try to do what my family doctor says so far.
I had my gallbladder removed when i was 27 years old. The doctor told my parents he had never seen so many cholesterol stones before. I was eating a hamburger one night and not soon after my abdomin was in severe pain. I was rushed to the nearst hospital.
My mother has depression. I have never been officially diagnosed with any type of depression yet. Sometimes I do feel melancholy.
My parents got separated when i was 13 and they got divored when i was 23 years of age. When my parents got separated it was a shock to me first. It was somewhat difficult to get used to. I had to adapt to the change fast. The divorce didn't have any negative effects for me. I had a girlfriend in 1993 for a month. Things didn't work out and i started to drink more afterwards. I still think about her. I didn't like her much anyway.
My grandfather had bad psoriasis on his scalp and i have the same problem. Then comes pimples.
I've had panic attacks before many times. I had my first attack at age 18. I felt like i was going to die or that the world was coming to a end. I ended up in the emergency ward a few times being hooked up to a heart monitor machine.
I'm trying to maintain a low fat and a high fibre diet. Ever since i had my gallbladder removed in 2001 i had to change my diet. I was diagnosed with high cholesterol in 2005. Now im still overweight and find it difficult to get motivated to do any exercise. Maintaining a good diet is a challenge for me everyday.
There are the odd times when i catch the flu or a cold. I don't like it thought.