Been a busy couple of days. Moving to a new apartment today. I think it will be a good change for me. Finally get a place to get away from everything. My girls dont know yet but I will take them down to it when I am moved in. I think my false sense of uforia (still cant spell), comes from looking forward and not backwards for a change. I think at this point I am emotionally drained and that is not a good thing. Going to see my therapist next week and maybe she can help me make sense of all this. A part of me still hopes there is a chance of reconciliation with the stbx, but I think the rational side has had enough for awhile. It's hard to distance myself fromn her at the moment. I go to the house to look after the kids while she is at work. I end up seeing her 2-3 times a day. There is always an emotional crisis for her on any given day and I can't deal with it anymore.
I just moved into a new place myself a couple weeks ago. It was a good move to make. It was the first step in pulling my life back together. You'll be surprised!! Good Luck!!
heartbroken73
Thanks for the support everyone. I think I am emotionally drained from all this and don't like the comfortably numb feelings at the moment. My kids need me right now.
Spectre
They do need you. It will all work its self out. Good luck and the "feeling" will go away in time. I know. BLAH BLAH, But I am hoping for that for all of us. Still waiting for my time to come.
micheleg