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Been a crazy week. Moved to the new apartment. Kinda sad the first few nights. Missed not checking on the kids before bed. Going to see the therapist on Wed. night. Lots to talk about. The New community school had its Grand opening yesterday. My oldest daughter was part of the Kindergarten choir that performed. My STBX had the nerve not to show for it. I wonder what is going through her head these days. Well daddy's princess did great and got a standing ovation at the end (Daddy's still grinning from ear to ear). I got it all on video and am going to post it on youtube when I get a chance. Will post the link. Well bed is calling.
Been a busy couple of days. Moving to a new apartment today. I think it will be a good change for me. Finally get a place to get away from everything. My girls dont know yet but I will take them down to it when I am moved in. I think my false sense of uforia (still cant spell), comes from looking forward and not backwards for a change. I think at this point I am emotionally drained and that is not a good thing. Going to see my therapist next week and maybe she can help me make sense of all this. A part of me still hopes there is a chance of reconciliation with the stbx, but I think the rational side has had enough for awhile. It's hard to distance myself fromn her at the moment. I go to the house to look after the kids while she is at work. I end up seeing her 2-3 times a day. There is always an emotional crisis for her on any given day and I can't deal with it anymore.
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May 21, 2007
Sad day today..not looking forward to tommorow. A lot to do to try and bring some closure and peace. Happy to say though that I am continuing to exercise and realised I have lost 16.5lb and no longer have much of a spare tire. The kids are really starting to show the effects of this. My oldest is having some anger issues and separation anxiety issues. I am going to see if my therapist could perhaps fit them in with me. She is so afraid of saying anything about it. She doesn't want to offend me or my stbx. I hope and pray that she doesn't think that any of this is her fault. She never asked for any of this. And as sad and upset and angry I am I know she is suffering more....
Sad day today..not looking forward to tommorow. A lot to do to try and bring some closure and peace. Happy to say though that I am continuing to exercise and realised I have lost 16.5lb and no longer have much of a spare tire. The kids are really starting to show the effects of this. My oldest is having some anger issues and separation anxiety issues. I am going to see if my therapist could perhaps fit them in with me. She is so afraid of saying anything about it. She doesn't want to offend me or my stbx. I hope and pray that she doesn't think that any of this is her fault. She never asked for any of this. And as sad and upset and angry I am I know she is suffering more....
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My daughters went though the sam thing. They still don't trust him and don't like to see him touch me. Its a good idea to try to fit them in with counsling. Good luck
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I just moved into a new place myself a couple weeks ago. It was a good move to make. It was the first step in pulling my life back together. You'll be surprised!! Good Luck!!
heartbroken73
Thanks for the support everyone. I think I am emotionally drained from all this and don't like the comfortably numb feelings at the moment. My kids need me right now.
Spectre
They do need you. It will all work its self out. Good luck and the "feeling" will go away in time. I know. BLAH BLAH, But I am hoping for that for all of us. Still waiting for my time to come.
micheleg