TillyJones's Journal

I am not sure if it's possible but i think i have passed my depression on to my (x) partner.  He refused to talk to me last night for early 4 hours.  He went to sleep to avoid talking to me.  I'm not sure why.  He wont tell me.  I think he expects me to know what he's thinking.  I have said that i wish i could read his mind in order to help him the way he helps me (or has done in the past) but this doesn't seem to get through.  My problem is that i know he's suffering with depression and i have somehow managed to drag myself out of it (although i'm not sure if this isn't just a high as i'm feeling particularly great at the moment) so i don't want to get dragged down again but it's making me very anxious.

I have started the Cognative Behavioural Therapy course and started using the relaxation cd that came with it.  It's fantastic.  I used it just before i went to bed last night and i actually slept until 3 am (when i decided that my partner should probably get off the floor and either join me or go to the spare room (which i had made up just in case i wanted to use it).  He joined me (allbeit very coldly) and slept through to his alarm at 6.  I reset the alarm and woke at 8.) 

 Thinking about it now, i don't actually want to go home tonight.  I have arranged to meet a friend after work so i am hoping i will feel more positive when we're through nattering. 

I hope your days are going well

 Blessings

Tilly