Yesterday, I had a birthday party …
Yesterday, I had a birthday party to attend. As the day progressed at work, I began to get a headache. I went home, …
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I AM HOME!!!!!!!! IVE BEEN HERE FOR A MIN BUT THE DAY IS HERE I WILL JUST HAVE TO GET ALL THE STUFF STRAIT AND GET DONE WITH THE ARMY. THAT MIGHT BE A YEAR BUT I KNOW THAT I AM READY TO BE HOME WITH MY KIDS. I SPENT THE WEEKEND AT HOME THIS WEEK AND IT WAS GREAT. I GOT TO SEE MY LOVELY WIFE AND MY THREE BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS. MY YOUNGEST TURNNED 5 THIS WEK AND MY ANNIVERSERY WAS ON MONDAY SO IT WAS THE PERFECT TIME FOR THE ARMY TO GET ME HOME. I HAVE REALLY BAD HEADACHES AND THAT WAS THE ONLY PROBLEM THIS WEEKEND MY WIFE AND I BOTH HAD A HEADACHE SHE STAYED HOME AND I WENT TO THE PARTY. I WAS DOIN GOOD UNTIL THE FLASHES FROM THE CAMERA WENT OFF. I HAD A FRIEND COME OVER AND SAY THIS IS YOUR DAUGHTERS PARTY WHY ARENT YOU UP WITH HER. I DID HAVE A HEADACHE BUT I DIDNT WANT TO TELL HER TH REAL REASON. I HAD A BAD FLASH BACK THAT ALMOST GOT TO COME OUT AND PLAY WITH EVERYONE. BUT I COMPOSED MYSELF AND WENT AND SAT DOWN. ANYONE WHO ASKS I JUST SAID IT WAS MY HEADACHE. BUT THAT WAS CLOSE I DONT WANT TO EMBARRASS MYSELF IN FRONT OF FAMILY AND FRIENDS ESPECIALLY WHEN IT IS AS ROCKY NOW AS IT IS WITH MY WIFE AND I. THINGS ARE GETTING BETTER DONT GET ME WRONG BUT THERE ARE STILL SOME TENSE AREAS THAT WE HAVE TO MASSAGE OUT. I WANT THAT GOOD LIFE FOR MY WIFE AND KIDS I HOPE THAT I CAN GIVE IT TO THEM. I LOVE THEM AND ALL MY FAMILY. I DONT EVER WANT TO EMBARASS MYSELF OR THEM BY ACTING OUT WHEN SOMETHING LIKE A FLASHBACK OR JUST PTSD HAPPENS.
MY BODY IS STRANGE. I HAV THESE OFF THE WALL DREAMS. AND IT GETS TO ME BAD. I HAD ONE THE OTHER NIGHT THAT I REALY DONT REMEMBER WHAT IT WAS ABOUT BUT I KNOW THAT I WOKE UP IN A PANIC, AND ENDED UP HAVING AN ANXIETY ATTACK. THEN THIS MORNING I GOT THE SHIT SHOCKED OUT OF ME IM SOUND ASLEP IN BED AND SOMEONE WALKD IN MY ROOM I REAL QUICK GOT UP AND WENT TO THE DOOR BUT I SCARED THEM OF I THINK WITH THE FAST REACTION. I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD IS CRASHING IN AROUND ME AND THERE IS NO WAY THAT I M EVER GOING TO BE THE SAME. BU BY THE GRACE OF GOD I WILL BE HEALED. WELL THATS ALL FOR TONIGHT. LOVE YOU ALL AND WISH THE BEST FOR EVERYONE........SETH
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Seth Honey, I wondered why you were so distant this weekend, You know You can tell me anything, I will not Judge you, You know that by now don't you, I know it is not going to be easy for you to re-adjust to home life, And now that you say it, I would see why the skating rink the other day could of triggered a flashback, there were lots of people there, and everyone was excited, the lights and stuff, Don't you ever feel you can't share this with me, I have always tried to protect your honor, You can not face this alone Son, It does not make you weak to reach out for help, it makes you well, I love you as if you were my own, I have from day one, Uncle Tony does also, I know things are very dificult at home, It isn't the idea situation, But It can be, If everyone wants it to be, Someone is very spoiled , Well lets say you have four spoiled brats, lol, You do a standup job as a father, and spouse Dont you dare beat yourself up , Good things happen, You being in Kansas in one of them, Patients is a tough thing to endure, but it is a important part of life, Hang in there, and know you can call me anytime, I love you , Hugs and Prayers Auntie Shar
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My Dear great friend.. You will get through this with the help of your family and the lord.. It weill be a rough road but you will heal..I was able to view the phots that auntie posted.. Your so HANDSOME.. and that Mattie .. I told Sharla I wish she was mine.. Take advantage of all the help the Veterens will offer in the way of therapy.. I wish my husband had when he first got home from vietnam.. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.. All my deep love and respect to you Love D
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I was lookin at different profiles and I just want to say Thank U for everything u do/did for our country! U may get told 100's of times those words but really I do appreciate u and ur duty! God bless u and ur family!Merry Christmas! :)
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