joolz218's Journal

 Today in the mail, I received my new drivers license and social security card with my old name on them again. What a dose of relief that felt like...a definite sense of closure and very uplifting! I am ready to move on with my life and leave behind the scars from the mistaken beliefs I had. I have received the most blessed gift from the Good Lord above as a result of that marriage...and because I was born and raised Catholic, the thought of divorce does not sit well with me still. I made vows that I truly believed in. In front of my family, in front of God. I am not happy to be 'divorced' so to speak, but happy to be divorced from him. I truly wish my marriage had worked out the way I had envisioned marriage to be. I may live in a fairytale world sometimes and feel that my views have somehow been jaded as a result of my own experiences...but in my heart, I do believe that there is a reason for everything. And though my marriage failed, my heart is still intact. And the love I have for my kids is the greatest gift I have been given and I cherish that more than I can express...and on that note...my little guy who has been sick with a fever, vomiting and cough is here and needs my attention...til later...have a great night...