joolz218's Journal

We are still sick at my house...poor little guy still has a fever and horrible cough. And I have the same for over a week now. I wish I could just stay under the covers for a week or so and live on chicken soup and gatorade. Hopefully, the end of this virus is near and doesn't turn into pneumonia for me which I have a tendency to get every year but not usually this early in the season. I am ready for the weekend and it's only Wednesday...not good!! One thing I've learned (again, went through the same thing with my daughter) about preschool...my son sure is good at sharing...GERMS, that is!! He seems to bring home every germ he comes in contact with and it feels as if we've battled nonstop colds and viruses since the school year began. Well, it's early, but I'm getting ready to lay down with him and call it a night...hopefully tomorrow and Friday will go by quickly and I can get some rest this weekend. Should've rested up some last weekend but I am glad that I got the windows caulked and covered in plastic cuz it sure did get colder this week. Wouldn't want to be out on the roof in this windy weather for anything...so I am thankful that I did it even though I felt crappy then too. Hope all are well...

 Today in the mail, I received my new drivers license and social security card with my old name on them again. What a dose of relief that felt like...a definite sense of closure and very uplifting! I am ready to move on with my life and leave behind the scars from the mistaken beliefs I had. I have received the most blessed gift from the Good Lord above as a result of that marriage...and because I was born and raised Catholic, the thought of divorce does not sit well with me still. I made vows that I truly believed in. In front of my family, in front of God. I am not happy to be 'divorced' so to speak, but happy to be divorced from him. I truly wish my marriage had worked out the way I had envisioned marriage to be. I may live in a fairytale world sometimes and feel that my views have somehow been jaded as a result of my own experiences...but in my heart, I do believe that there is a reason for everything. And though my marriage failed, my heart is still intact. And the love I have for my kids is the greatest gift I have been given and I cherish that more than I can express...and on that note...my little guy who has been sick with a fever, vomiting and cough is here and needs my attention...til later...have a great night...