Join Now
Haven't been on here in quite a while. It had gotten so depressing to me to read about all the people who are dealing with infidelity.
As all of you, I am still dealing with my husbands affairs and his illegitimate child every day. I can't believe it's been almost 10 months since he left. I know in my head that his leaving was the best thing, but I can't move past it. I know I don't ever want him again, but I don't want him to be happy either. I want to see him suffer like he has made this family suffer.
I get angry sometimes because everyone in my family (speaking kids mostly) seem to act as though nothing has happened. No one will talk, no one asks questions, etc. I want to ask the kids all the time about their connection with their dad, but I don't. And they don't volunteer anything either.
Since being here, I have a child who is now fully employed with benefits, a daughter who is getting ready to get married and a new grandson. It is so hard to not have that friend of 25 years to share all this with. He was in Arizona visiting bimbo's kid when the grandson was born. I have no idea if he even talks to any of them. They don't share, and I feel like they don't want me to ask. And I feel that it's none of my business what he's doing.
I start a new teaching position in the fall, so I have that to keep me busy. I believe God has placed me back in a kindergarten classroom, instead of an isolated family literacy program, because he wants me back out in the public.
Still lots of questions. Will he file for divorce in Oct when the year is up? How will I survive on my own without his support? Will I have to move? Lots of unanswered questions. But I'm sure everyone on this site has been or will be in this situation.
Sorry I haven't written in quite awhile, but it was just too depressing. Maybe coming back here will give me a little more UMPH to continue this voyage.
