mookids4's Journal

Boy it's been a while since I've been on here.  Since school got out a week ago, I find myself needing something to do.  I even find myself driving past "THEIR HOME".  Crazy I know.  It's been 1.5 years since he walked out, but I can't seem to find my own life.  Absolutely nothing has changed since the day he moved out.  He is still being true to his word and sending me the exact amount of money, and keeping me on his medical insurance.  I have all the conveniences of marriage, but no husband.  Believe me, I don't want him back, but I do want him to be having an awful life.

And since time has passed, my kids are becoming more accepting of his new relationship.  It kills me to see them communicating with him.  I realize that he is their father, but what a role model.  I truly wish he would move away or just be gone.  I refer to him as "scab" to my internet friends, because he is like a scab that never goes away.

Just FYI, I am in the process of having gastric-bypass.  I decided to do this for my health.  I want to be around for my grandchildren.  It's just a little scary thinking about never being able to have a Pepsi again.  But the benefits will be worth it.

Enough babbling.  Need to go find a new book to start reading.