Unreachable23's Journal

why cant i just be happy? or just content? i look at myself and i am neither. what am i doing wrong? i dont get it.

im a 7-8ish. 4:49pm

got up around 7:45, had to take my poor dog to the vet at 8:15 for some surgery and teeth cleaning.

came home and went back to bed till noon.

my dad was off today, so if he wasnt off, i would have gone back to bed at one.

but i didnt.

i ended up showering, hot shower, probly too hot. cus i was burning up afterwards. walking on the treadmill, watching an old biggest loser, and then picked my dog up around 4. poor doggie.

he had two growths removed, so now there are stiches. and some liquid from a bump on the inside of him, removed, and now stitches. one of the growths was removed on his toe so now he has a fluorescent green bandage on his foot.

i dont know what to write about.

nothing good is happening, im not happy, im about to cry.

have a psychiatrist, case worker, and therapist appt tomorrow. all back to back. i plan on telling the psych that i dont think the medicine is working, and that if anything i am getting worse.