Reminder to self:
June 20, 2008 1:55pm
Reminder to self:
Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, then he that is in the …
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twinkle39
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About Me
Married with no children. Love books, psychology, gardening and my dogs and cats
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Recent Activity
Today
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twinkle39 gave misnadam a Hug 6:00am
Thanks!!! I love stars too... it's a spiritual thing for me. It's in darkness that we see the light...…
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twinkle39 gave rachelle403 a Hug 5:47am
HELLO!! I see you are a believer as I am. Isn't it awesome how our lives can be a total mess and yet,…
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twinkle39 and rachelle403 are now friends 5:24am
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twinkle39 gave RubyMcC a High Five 5:24am
I'm not having the best night tonight!! ...got ur hug!! Thanks!! U must be a very strong person to have…
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twinkle39 changed their mood to Bad 5:11am
Yesterday
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twinkle39 gave RubyMcC a Hug 12:04am
Ur welcome!! Isn't it great how we can just love on people and you don't have to REALLY know them!!!!…
Monday
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twinkle39 gave hugsneeded a Hug 11:14am
I know, it was a rainy weekend here too!! The sun is shining this morning though... I can tell it's going…
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twinkle39 commented on BeckyK’s journal entry Hate the pain... 3:57am
Hi there!! I saw the BIG frown and thought you could use some encouragement! Life does get better each…
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twinkle39 gave Kontiki a Hug 3:30am
Hi!! I know Tinkerbell ROCKS!! I loved the old Disney days when everything was Snow White, Cinderella…
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Journal
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Abuse: My story...
June 11, 2008 8:05am
Ok. I was asked to share my story and since I'm feeling up to it, I will do so. My only issue is gosh, where to begin?!!....I …
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Finding out the truth / abusive parents
June 9, 2008 3:10am
I have just come to understand the extremes my parents have gone to - trying to hide their secrets about the abuse, neglect, and …
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Update
May 19, 2008 3:57am
Hey, you guys!! I wanted to thank everyone who has sent me hugs, all the kind words and prayers, too. Also, wanted to give …
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Hugbook
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Flower
thanks new friend that's one reason that i asked you to be friends and you have been in some of the same problems that I have found myself in so I figured as christians we could help each other out happy Wensday morning hugs to you new friend
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love the stars
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Twinkle, you brought up another memory for me in which I too had gotten a PO box so that my dad would not know where I lived. I also forced him to get me a phone when he wanted an 'electronic leash'. I didn't want to give him my real number. Nor did he know where I worked. Only by accident did he find out where I work but thankfully he doesn't stop by much. Putting every barrier we can between us really has helped me move forward although I am still repressing a lot of anger for him right now. But I am slowly taking him of his pedistal and accepting he does lie, cheat, steal, he will never love me the way I need a father too. He can't and won't. I would tell my sister where I live but I don't trust her not to blab so I have not talked to her much either.
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I don't mind one bit! That is so true how we can get behind the wall.. tear down the social barriers.. not judge each other by what they look like... etc etc... its just us.. who we are... and we love you for it.
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Flower
HI! thanks for the love and hugs! How was your weekend? Did you have a good fourth of July?
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Long story short, I'm a survivor of physical and emotional abuse. I grew up in an abusive home and until recently, really did not know or understand the extent of the abuse or how the emotional /psychological abuse was perpetuated(sp?). Most of this craziness was created by my mother who seeks to control and manipulate every situation to her advantage. She doesn't want the secret of abuse or the fact that she is unstable to get out. I'm the only person in my family who will be honest.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I am seeing a marriage and family therapist who has literally been a God-send.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I pray and spend at least a little time with God daily. This is where I draw most of my strength to deal with life and it's ups and downs.
Close Depression
Depression runs in my family. My mother, my sister and I have all had to struggle with this. I have had some anxiety which always seems to run alongside my depression like the "evil twins." I am coping some days are better than others. If not for my faith in God, I know I would not be here today!!!
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Very strange effect on me. I actually started having really strange, wacky thoughts on this one!!!
- Prozac Not Working
- Zoned me out. I was no longer depressed because I was no longer there!! lol
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- This is the best medication I've found. It is tough when you have to change dosages for any reason, but I have been on theis medication for about 5 to 6 years.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Reading positive and encouraging books about my spirituality or self-help that has a bit of a spiritual bent!!! Does wonders to help educate, relate and encourage me.
Open Environmental Allergies
Type of allergy: PollenI was officially diagnosed with several allergies in my mid 20's, however I know now that I have suffered from them since early childhood. They became acute later on after having my tonsils removed!! I have often wonder if there may be a greater immune issue underneath all this. Hope not.
Treatments
Open Alcoholism
I am actually an ACOA, but have been involved in 12 step off and on for almost 15 years. Also, like the Celebrate Recovery groups that are beginning to pop up all over the country. Very powerful, if you find the right group.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- Wonderful program. It was thru ACOA that I was able to make a decision to renew my relationship with Christ!!!
Open Infidelity
Not ready yet
Open Breakups & Divorce
Have been divorce once. Infidelity and emotional abuse was the norm. I now remarried...happily!! Thank you God!!
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
Have had allergies much of my life. Also, became aware in my teens that there was some kind of immuno-deficiency problem. Had my tonsils removed. About 3 years later was plagued by chronic sinus infections. Started allergy shots in my 20's which have been a real life saver. Still battle issues of fatigue, headaches, body aches and other mysterious symptoms.
Treatments
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Helps even out moods and depression. Wondering how much of this could be from chronic illness.
