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Journal Entry for February 11, 2007 Mood
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Today has been a good day. I am tired and I am in pain, but I have made a decision. I have wrestled with whether I could stay in this marriage and be a help mate and partner to my husband or whether I was just prolonging the inevitable. After much prayer and consideration, I have decided I want to work hard and save this marriage. 22 years together is a very long time to just end it. I know God can heal it. I know God has plans for us. I have seen little signs of hope. I have prayed and God told me that he was preparing us both for something. I have to believe that the hurt that I deal with in my heart and in my physical body have to serve some purpose. Do not get me wrong I do not believe God caused any of this. However I do think, he can turn around what the enemy meant for evil and turn it around to Good. God's plans for us are good, it is the enemy that comes and seeks to destroy. God is love, he is gentle, kind and peaceful. He will dry my tears and yes they still fall almost every day but God will dry them. I often vision myself setting on Father God's lap and him wiping away my tears and I know one day he will.
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  1. Gina6

    I am glad you have had a good day Gina!I am always so very tired and i some degree of pain also! Good decision on staying and trying to work it out with your husband, for i am sure God will honor that..He knows of what you need before you ask of it.......Pray hard and God will listen, i am sure of it!!! Love and Prayers to you always friend...Gina


    Gina6

  2. mandy

    I am also, glad you are trying to save your marriage. It is not an easy thing to do. I was married two times before this marriage. And to think I never believed in divorce and never wanted one. My first husband at age 16 married to him, had my daughter at 17 and 10years later walked in and caught him in bed with my best friend. It took me five years to even think of getting over or forgiving him. Then I remarried and after 14 years of marriage, in the church and involved in all christain events with my husband including AA and Alanon, we moved to Tn. and he found a young girl in AA a counselor and decieded he didn't want to be married any longer and took off to another city with her. Well, that two down and never wanted that again. Five years later I met my husband I am married to now and we've been married going on 13 years, and so far nothing has happened. He stuggles with my health problems and is mad at God for not healing me and sometimes his anger comes out at me but he is now in counseling for that. He is good to me and supportive. But I do believe without God working in our marriages daily and putting him first the devil will do whatever he can to destroy. He comes to kill and destroy and he does a good job. But God is more powerful and if we pray and ask anything in his name he will hear our prayers. Honey, I was so mad at God for not healing my past marrieages that I pulled away for years before I recommitted my life to him. I could not understand why God wouldn't heal my second marriage especially because we were so active in his work. Anyway I am past it all now and my prayaers will be going up for you and your husband. Does he want to save the marriage?? I stayed for a year after my second husband wanted out and wouldn't go and he almost killed me because I wouldn't leave I was giving God all the time he needed. It was scarry and two years ago my second husband called and came to my house and made amends to me , asked me to forgive him and to tell me he was so sorry howhe treated me and the children. It was really sad but it took alot for him to do that. I told him that I had forgiven him years ago. So in this life I have come to the realization that God's plan is bigger and better than our plan. I try to stay out of his way now. ha. You hang in there and do what you hear God saying to you and it will turn out to the better whatever happens for you. May God Bless and keep you in his arms and keep those tears from falling down. He did mine and still does. Love ya, Mandy


    mandy

  3. brokenbody

    when I did leave for a few days I called and he answered the phone. I will never forget his voice trying to choke back tears he asked do I have a chance, I said yes and he broke down. He is willing it is just I have seen him try to change before so this time i was


    brokenbody

  4. angel45

    I think you have made the right choice in trying to save your marriage I have been married for 23 years and I know that I would fight for my marriage too..all the years you have had together have not all been bad..just think and concentrate on the good things..think of one thing in your past married life that made you really happy both of you and recreate it again..I wish you the best...


    angel45

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