This is so so hard r now, I dnt …
This is so so hard r now, I dnt have words to discribe it....
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I read hubby's journal and I see a very different man. I want to tell him I am proud of him. I have been reading too that is the way we are going to have to do this to both of us heal and both of us grow stronger. I finally found something that totally discribe the way i feel about the addiction. The book said a spouse of an addicted person feels they are always second best. That they are not good enough and they blame theirself for it because they think if they had all their spouse needs he would not hunt for something else. This is how I have felt for so long. Like I was not good enough for him, so he has to go somewhere else. Perhaps that is why I let it go on for so long and did not put a stop to it. I am learning my position in my home as a wife and a helpmate. I am learning to stop blaming myself for all of this because I did and have for a very long time.
To those who have asked about my health, I am in a lot of pain. I have lost my pain clinic for now and I am two proceedures behind on my pain shots. Out of part of my medicine and hoping that is fixed by Sunday. Other then that I am o.k..
I am suppose to learn hobbies as part of therapy so I have been doing some photography, I posted some of the pictures. I hope you enjoy God's beauty.
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Hey sweetie, I have been so worried about you. Im glad that you arent blaming yourself anymore and it does sound like he is trying so very hard and Im glad you are seeing a different man. Im proud of both of you. Im pulling for you both. Im so sorry that your in so much pain. I hope that everything in that area gets straightened out. Im glad you took up photography. I love the pics and am looking forward to more. Keep taking care of yourself, know that I love and miss you, Im praying for you and hubby and I will be so glad when you are feeling great and everything gets back to normal for you. You are such a sweetheart and I hate that you are in pain. I hope you have a pain free weekend and have a great weekend. Know Im thinking about you always and continuing to pray....love you bunches((((((((hugs))))))) Julie
indygal
I hope that you find a doctor to refill your meds soon. I also am praying for your pain to get under control. I think it is great that you and your hubby are communicating. And getting a hobby will help you retreat from your pain. I am looking forward to seeing your photos.
Hugs and Prayers, Pam
hotdog
how did you loose your pain clinic? i hope you find a new one soon. don't let yourself get into too much pain before you do something about it............debbie
dkpape
oh hun so glad that you are seeing things from a differnet view now
hope you can get some meds soon
love the picture thanks for sharing
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gjones
It's great you are healing from the problems between you and your husband. It's great that you are able to deal with your pain, even with the lost of the pain clinic. I hope that problem will be solved soon. Plus by you releasing some of the anger you might be releasing some of the pain as well. Keep Taking care of yourself for you. Hugs Marg
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