... and all I can do is cry... …
... and all I can do is cry... and try not to hurt myself even though I feel like I need to... but I don't want to …
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Tomorrow is the day I walk away and heal. I feel guilty though cause it is going to hurt him. it will also hurt my mom and dad. I am trying to tell myself that they have hurt me. Mainly my husband. He has hurt me so very much. I have to keep telling mysefl that, only vengence is not what I seek. I just want to heal, I want to find someone who will treat me right and take care of me. Is that so wrong?
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You need to do what you believe is best for yourself. Nobody has the right to hurt you. Healing and love are what you need in your life.
JimK
no it's not wrong. you keep up your sprits and walk away, and work on healing yourself. you have to gina your health is too important..............debbie
dkpape
I dont know or fully understand everything thats happened to you but Its hard for me to imagine any parents that would want their child to stay in a situation where thier health is being so drasticly diminished, they should be proud of you for standing up and taking steps towards a healthy happier life. As for him, Well let it hurt him he caused alot of the pain you have been living with and in no way will it compare to what you have gone through.
Remember were all here for you.
lost trust
Gina.... Get ahold of me if and when you can....Kathi
DREAMBEARS
I know you feel guilty about leave your parents and your son right now...you know your son will understand...as for the parents you know your mother is where she needs to be to get better and you have to do the same thing. DO NOT feel any guilt for leaving DH...he has showed you over and over that he has not concern for your feeling or your health. He has gone back on every he promise he made when you agreed to come back home last year. I hope you made that list {promise made and promised broken} if you have any doubts about what you are doing you can then look at the list and remind yourself how much of a liar he truely is and all the danger he has put you in through the years. You re doing the right thing leaving so you can get stronger when you have rested and you are stronger you will know you did the right thing. {{{{{{HUG}}}}}}
rebel64
You can't let what others think of your situation dictate what you do. You are a worthy, kind, caring person who deserves to be happy. Heal first before trying to find someone else or else you will fall into the same trap you're currently in. Be strong and say to yourself several times a day "I am worthy, I deserve true happiness." Keep repeating that. Because it's the truth and you are worthy and deserve true happiness. Honey you are fixing to find a brand new world. Don't let it overwhelm you. At times you will have to step back and just take in the goodness of God. Pray much and know that your friends are behind you and beside you all the way.
Your darkest hour is right before the dawn. I never understood that until I realized I had been living in darkness and when I stepped out into the light I was happy and healthy.
You go girl and know that you have total support here.
your friend
gretchenk
stillcrazy
Gina, you aren't wrong. You deserve a life, of being healthy, safe, and happy. I'm with you, 100%, and i support you. You are doing what's best for yourself now, and i'm thankful you are.
Chris1981
No sweetie, you are not doing anything wrong. You can not stay somewhere where you are getting hurt. You need to get out before you get hurt worse. I know its hard, but you have all of us with you. Know that Im holding your hand and we will walk out together. Im there for you and love you.....Julie
indygal
you are doing great. very much anticipation and relief for you. God guide and protect Gina may angels light all the way
listless
Gina,you keep walking and do not look behind you
thoughts and prayers for youmay you heal and find happiness
hugssssssssss
gerri
gjones
Keep strong and think about you, do what you need to do so you can smile once again.
JustMeInTN
You are doing what is right and best for you. It is only the shame they have put on you all these years that would make you feel like you can't walk away from hurt. Stop the cycle and take of yourself. Much Love.
LoriWantsHealing
There is nothing wrong with wanting to be treated the way that you deserve to! Hang in there. Kim :)
KimN3