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I wise person once said a rubber band serves no purpose until it is stretched.
Mother Theresa said God never gives us more then we could handle but she wished God didn't trust her so much.
Today and Yesterday has been just that which I stated above.
I went to the doctor yesterday, I have an infection in my bl__d, I word blockers and my bp was at stroke level at 10 am, I had to wait till it came down before she let me leave. She gave me three shots one to bring down the pressure and rochephin and steriods for the infection, I had to have a chest x-ray but it is fine. I did have to go back today and get another rocephin shot. If I don't feel a lot better I go monday for a third one. She sent me home yesterday to get off my feet. I did go to the hospital first and mom begged me to stay the night. I told her I couldn't I had to go home and lay down. I called back later and she was crying she was in so much pain in her groin area. I felt so torn and so really bad. Then hubby and I had world war three and I did tell him the worse things for me to get over where.
Today doctor talked to me some more, cause I was trying to read a book that my husband wants me to read called something about heal the broken heart a women's guide to recovery. The book hurts it brings up too much pain so she said if it upsets you don't do. Right now my husband is furious with me cause I am going to listen to her and not him. I don't care let him be.
My mother's clot is from her groin to the calf of her leg. They started her on Moraphine today. She just has a bunch of angels around her is all I can say.
The doctor talked to me about my son's bone islands and said they needed to do a bone scan that the Islands can turn to cancer and with as rapid as they form, we needed to make sure we keep a close watch on him. I take him to the doctor Monday, I did talk to him though he knows the big thing he said he figured it out because I have been crying a lot lately. He said he understand why I want the divorce now, so that is a relief in a way. It was hard watching his face go through a rage of emotions from furious with his dad and almost crying cause of my hurt. I was dreading it and it is done though.
I lady I use to go to church with who was a wonderful friend to me, died yesterday I found out about an hour ago. I use to make her cookies every Christmas with my Sunday School class. We baked them for the Widows every year.
You know rubber bands do break.
I wise person once said a rubber band serves no purpose until it is stretched.
Mother Theresa said God never gives us more then we could handle but she wished God didn't trust her so much.
Today and Yesterday has been just that which I stated above.
I went to the doctor yesterday, I have an infection in my bl__d, I word blockers and my bp was at stroke level at 10 am, I had to wait till it came down before she let me leave. She gave me three shots one to bring down the pressure and rochephin and steriods for the infection, I had to have a chest x-ray but it is fine. I did have to go back today and get another rocephin shot. If I don't feel a lot better I go monday for a third one. She sent me home yesterday to get off my feet. I did go to the hospital first and mom begged me to stay the night. I told her I couldn't I had to go home and lay down. I called back later and she was crying she was in so much pain in her groin area. I felt so torn and so really bad. Then hubby and I had world war three and I did tell him the worse things for me to get over where.
Today doctor talked to me some more, cause I was trying to read a book that my husband wants me to read called something about heal the broken heart a women's guide to recovery. The book hurts it brings up too much pain so she said if it upsets you don't do. Right now my husband is furious with me cause I am going to listen to her and not him. I don't care let him be.
My mother's clot is from her groin to the calf of her leg. They started her on Moraphine today. She just has a bunch of angels around her is all I can say.
The doctor talked to me about my son's bone islands and said they needed to do a bone scan that the Islands can turn to cancer and with as rapid as they form, we needed to make sure we keep a close watch on him. I take him to the doctor Monday, I did talk to him though he knows the big thing he said he figured it out because I have been crying a lot lately. He said he understand why I want the divorce now, so that is a relief in a way. It was hard watching his face go through a rage of emotions from furious with his dad and almost crying cause of my hurt. I was dreading it and it is done though.
I lady I use to go to church with who was a wonderful friend to me, died yesterday I found out about an hour ago. I use to make her cookies every Christmas with my Sunday School class. We baked them for the Widows every year.
You know rubber bands do break.
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God is not going to let your rubber band break. you have come so far, you are so close now. i will keep you and your mom in my prayers..........debbie
dkpape
you are true but the sun is going to rise and nothing stays the same
listless
A rubber band will break when let's see...1 + 1 + 1 + 1 and so on is pulling on it at the same time. So with that in mind, time to let go of the things that you have absolutely no control over and cannot change. Know what I used to do when my alcoholic ex-husband used to verballyhammer at me when we were married? I got in my car, found me a church parking lot, parked and said everything I wanted to say to the ex and everything else going on in my life at that time to God. I mean I let it all hang out (windows up pf course in case anyone came by and thought I'd lost it so to speak). Then I'd cry my eyes out for a bit. Then go back home. Of course, eventually I left him but that was how I handled things until I left him. It helped a lot actually mainly because God already knew what I was thinking right on down to the expletives so since He already knew, it wasn't like I could hide what I was thinking anyway so I figured I might as well get some benefit out of the situation. I was actually spiking quite high in my BP and came close to stroke during those years - even had an MS scare back then the stress was so bad.
Anyway, absolutely you and your family are in my prayers. Hugs, Mandy
MandyB
Jennay is right. The sun is going to rise again Gina. my thoughts and prayers are with you, at this very difficult time. i ask you, to pray, and to not give up. we're here for you Gina. You take care.
Chris1981
not give up it is alot easier to say the to do. Tonight I am very ready to give up.
brokenbody
how i feel tonight
Warrior is a Child
Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing
Strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me
I'm hiding all the tears
(Chorus)
They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
'Cause deep inside this armour
The warrior is a child
Unafraid because his armour is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest
People say that I'm amazing
Never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies
That lay me at His feet
Chorus x2
I drop my sword and look up for His smile
Because deep inside this armour
Deep inside this armour
Deep inside this armour
The Warrior is a Child
brokenbody
I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. I will keep you in my prayers. I know God can help you. Sometimes it is just a matter of listening to what he tells you even if it is not easy, he will be there to help you through if you do his will!! I am here for you. prayers and love KIM
GrannyKim
so sorry youre having such a hard time. but i would be there to if it was my mother.when my husband was so sick and in the hospital everyone kept trying to make me come home i did one walked the floor .and had kids get me a camping cot and refused to come home any more.wish i could help will be in thoughts and prayers.
greatgranny
I am starting to see what you mean. In the Bible, you can find great relation to what Job was going thru. Remember how it ends? If not read it, it might bring some hope to you.
God Bless,
Tricia
ToHurtToCry
I understand we all got mountains to climb and we are never given more then we can bare but wow you have went throgh alot .I hope everything works out for you and you will be in my prayers. so sorry to here about your friend. hope your mom and your son are better soon.love ya and take care.
sweetie44
You are a STRONG person! Many others would have been in the crazy ward going through all that you have been through. Keep turning to the Lord for strength. "With Him, All things are possible"!
Pam
hotdog
Just handle the problems at the moment if possible. Everyone is fighting for your affection through their own pain. So look into yourself and see what is the most important thing you can do for yourself in order to make yourself better. Take care Gina I will say an extra prayer for you tonight Marg
highmarg
hang in there Gina,so happy that the x rays came back fine,need to take care of yourself and son first
hope your mom is ok
hugsssssss
gerri
gjones
Gina, I too have wanted to give up but if I do the Dr that screwed up on me in the beginning wins and I WILL NOT LET HIM WIN!!I learned the hard way you have to put yourself first and that must seem like a really tough task with all your facing, but we want you around alot longer, so does your mom & son. The song you typed could I trouble you to tell me the name of the artist or the name of the cd. Thank you God bless you & keep you strong. take care, Lisa
hurtinangel42