Journal Entry for May 12, 2008
May 12, 2008 10:01pm
i just wanted to let everyone know that i may be back here for a while. im pretty messed up at the moment. im back at home with my parents and i am …
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About Me
At the moment i am in the process of writting a memoir. i am a passionate writter who one day hopes to be a best selling author. i live at home with my parents at the moment and i am unemployed. just trying to focus on my writting. recently broke up with my boyfriend because he couldnt handle the pressure of me being sick. i have a younger brother that i love and admire so much, i look up to him so much even though he is 10years younger than me. i have never met my real dad and at the moment i feel an overwhelming need to find him- to get to know him. im from a small italian family and we all love eachother very much. i love to cook, even though i hate to eat. i also love to exercise but i rarely have the energy to do it for more than an hour. one day i hope to be happy and content with myself and with my life. hopefully!
Interests
i love writting and reading aswell. my favourite books are prozac nation, bloodletting, the secret and a boy called it. i feel that when i read i am emersed into someone elses life, i love that. i love music, listening and making. i am a self taught guitarist- been playing for about a year and a half now. not very good but i hoped to be one day. i love hanging out with my best briend and her beautiful baby. i also love going around to local pubs on the weekend and watching a live band- theres nothing better. i love johnny diesel ( right on the tip f my tounge ) lol!
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Journal Entry for June 13, 2007
June 13, 2007 8:10pm
well that didnt last long, im back to my depressed self. i really thought that this time was different but, its not. the littlesest things just set …
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Journal Entry for June 11, 2007
June 11, 2007 10:26pm
ive been really busy this weekend, so its been good. kept me from thinking about everything way to much. i guess you could say that i had a good …
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Journal Entry for June 6, 2007
June 6, 2007 9:53pm
EVERYTHING BULIMIA HAS TAKEN AWAY FROM ME
- my life, i feel i dont even have a life- it consists of bulimia and that is it. thats all i think about …
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Journal Entry for June 6, 2007
June 6, 2007 9:40pm
i spoke to my ex last night, i havent spoke to him since we broke up like 3 weeks ago. we broke up with me because he said i had to get better and …
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Hi :) Thanks for the add! I know .. i've been listening to the song constantly since we split up ! It helps a little though! lol XX
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Hi there my son read the boy called it several years ago and every so often he happens to bring it up and say it is a great story, With that in mind I wanted youi to know that I was alot like you, I wouldlike to advice you to read the book THE SECERT You will find alot of answers you are searching for. I know you and I promise that you will benefit from it. This book will change your whole perspective.
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hope your day goes good! im praying for you to have the strength not to cut!
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keep ur head up
I’m With You
Hope you are ok
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI have been a sufferer of Bullimia for about 6 years now and it did actually start with anorexia. To this day i still struggle with this way of life and sometimes i even feel like giving up on myself. i feel so alone and i dont know what to do, i dont know how to break this habit and stop this damaging destructive behaviour
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- i think its a crock of shit. i think its because i find it hard to be honest. i can never tell the whole truth.
- Zoloft Not Working
- this was a while ago now but for the past 6 years i havent recieved any treatment or spoken to any doctor. When i did he perscribed me Zoloft but i didnt take it.
Close Self-Injury
i have been a self harmer for about 6 years now. i dont know why i do it and i havent had help for it either. i dont know what to tell people- i cut myself when im angry or fustrated, and it feels good. yeah right people would look at me like i am crazy. i have several scars all over my body that i struggle to hide everyday, there absolutely hideous and make me feel even worse about myself
Open Sexual Abuse
when i was 13 i was raped by someone i knew. someone who to this day i see frequently. ive never told anyone he did that to me. only me and him know. i have never talked about this before and i think it has been a huge reason why i am so messed up. i feel so worthless
Treatments
- Humex Working / Worked
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
since the age of 12 i have been smoking pot on a regular basis. i can feel it really starting to affect me, i want to stop but i cant. my parents both smoke pot aswell so its really hard for me to give up
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- Humex Not Working
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