Simba's Journal

Last week a bill became due of over $400. So what? I borrowed from my sister to pay it. It got paid. She doesnt want the money back until the end of the year.  Praise God!

Today, my electricity was turned off for a $300 overdue balance. So what?  it was paid, the service was restored.

Today a  meeting was called because of my trouble making co worker who whines and moans about everything. Usually he is making accusations, about everyone except himself and makes the work place hostile. In the past I would worry about it; today 'So what?' The meeting wasnt its usual barrage of accusations from him, it was more of telling him to stfu or leave.

The bills got paid, food in stocked, groceries are purchased, life goes on. 

But the main this is that during these situations I didnt PANIC

In the past my initial response to stressful events was to PANIC, my heart would race and my blood pressure would rise. I would sometimes cry.

But Im proud of myself for shrugging these things off with my new catchphrase

'It is what it is'....accept it, work on what you can, dont worry about the rest. God has provided EVERYTHING that I need, even extra 'wants', even when I dont see it. I really appreciate that.

I appreciate the calm and peace that I now have. The feeling of being centered and secure. I love that. And I plan to hold on to that no matter what.

Yeah self work is WORK, and its difficult, but I love the rewards!