nibblet's Journal

For those that suffer, please read.... 

Often I hear it said, “God did not want me to suffer, so by His grace, I was saved…” Or “That didn’t happen to me, because God was looking out for me.” All well and good, but …now, this is just my view, what I have realized in my own personal journey. You all don’t have to agree. In fact, I welcome all views.

I don’t think God wants any of us to suffer! I might stop right there, though I won’t.

This is something I have not shared with many but feel compelled to share it here. It happened years ago. I felt I was driven to madness, and it seemed to me that monsters, demons and negativity were trying to seduce me in my sleep. I could not even tell if they were real or just a nightmare. I physically fought them. It felt as if they slept with me or sat at the edge of my bed. When, finally, I could not take anymore, I did something I had not done in a very long time. I prayed…feverishly, almost frantically, nonstop…every prayer I knew. I begged, cried. Before long, everything went quiet. And the stillness was the most beautiful feeling I have ever known in my life. The darkness changed to light, in my mind, for all I could see was light. And I felt His loving arms around me. I wept like a baby. After that moment, the nightmares stopped. My life changed. I knew from that moment God would always walk with me, and I was no longer afraid.

Yes, there are skeptics who can provide a logical explanation for all that, but I know in my heart what really happened that day.

I believe with all of my heart, God does not simply say, well these two people have had similar lifestyles, but I am going to save this one, because I don’t want him to suffer. No… I think God needs our willingness and our help, or His hands are virtually tied. I believe that’s what free will is all about. He is not the one who chooses to help or not. He is just waiting for you to let go, surrender and let Him take the reigns. I believe that anybody who asks and seeks will get.

I also believe, however, that many people have more work to do, in accordance with His will and longer journeys. I believe those people have been given the opportunity to carry a special message. In my opinion, it is the gift of all gifts. If you believe God's word, He sent His only Son to suffer for the greater good... and to help others...

Yes, if we are among those people, we will suffer more, at times, mercilessly but we need not die. We can heal in the process. If we don’t begin to heal, it’s because we drop the ball. Yes, that happens, too. And if you drop the ball, you can pick it up again, but you are better off hanging on to it like your life depends on it. It truly does!