screwed up
November 17, 2008 12:10am
I realized today how incredibly screwed up I still am. I knew I had problems trusting men but this goes beyond problems. I don't even …
tannkgirl’s Profile
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About Me
Suffered from panic disorder since the age of 15, had bad episodes over the year, generally lasting a month to a few months, normally resulting in getting back on meds...in the middle of one of my worst situations.
Interests
Own two horses, 2 cats & a snake work in the online advertising industry, have my degree in International Relations....
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tannkgirl wrote a journal entry: screwed up 12:10am
I realized today how incredibly screwed up I still am. I knew I had problems trusting men but this goes…
November 6
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tannkgirl wrote a journal entry: New Job Monday 2:09am
So I start my new job on monday. Its definately a risk company considering they are a very new startup,…
October 31
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New Job Monday
November 6, 2008 2:09am
So I start my new job on monday. Its definately a risk company considering they are a very new startup, but I'm being well taken care of, …
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exhausted
October 31, 2008 1:16am
I am very tired. I don't really want to write much but I feel like I need to. I may get a job at this company that if all goes well …
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What a very strange weekend...
October 13, 2008 12:29am
So I wrote an interesting post last night...I was a bit drunk and am thinking well, maybe not thinking so much more rationally, but oh well. Im …
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Hug
Hope all is going well with your dating !! Love, Nene
Present
Hey - and Happy Birthday!! This is a special, one of a kind, totally invisible, virtual present - use it wisely!! hehehehe
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High Five
Nothing like getting out of a rough relationship to make you stronger and happier - keep going girl, there's a whole world out there waiting for you to conquer it!!
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Flower
Ive been missing you !!
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Hug
Hi there! Haven't been on in awhile, hope you're going ok. Sending some southern hemisphere sunshine your way!!
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Close Panic Attacks
Panic attacks started right when I turned 15, went on meds for 4 years, had a bad episode after quitting meds in the middle of that period. Got off the meds after 4 years, was great, relatively little panic and no attacks. About a year ago attacks started again, went back on meds for a year and been off for 2 months, feeling insane again....
Treatments
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- very helpful
- Ativan Working / Worked
- I hate taking it because I always feel horrible the day after but it helps when i need it.
- EMDR Working / Worked
- Only form of therapy that ever helped me, absolutely phenomenal
- Meditation Working / Worked
- helps me to sleep
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Worked for panic while on, side effects included sexual, tired all the time, emotionally bland...withdrawl horrible
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- i used to take this for sleep
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI Initially started having panic attacks which developed into depression and now I am stuck in a whirlwind of anxiety, depersonalization and depression. I just got back on meds...all this started again after getting off of the meds
Treatments
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
Open Breakups & Divorce
Boyfriend moving out, first time I have lived with anyone. I have gone through horrible medication withdrawls as of recent and had a complete breakdown. As I tried to stabalize my mood and started to feel better my relationship is ending and I have fallen into a black pit again. I can't imagine being without him and being alone here. I am going to have to see him too because he works at the ranch my horses are at and I don't know how to handle seeing him after he is out of this house.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was molested when I was 9 from a close friend of the family. I dont remember how many times although I know it happend more then once. I didnt remember until I was 16. I think I have overcome alot of it but there are resinating effects
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