tonight we have marriage counciling. …
tonight we have marriage counciling. but i'm sure its just a waste of money. i think he was on a date …
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God, today was overwhelming for me. Missing the kids and my old life (why? he was so shiity-all the ways he mind f...ed me) anyways it hit me today at the new job. It was a little touch and go trying to keep my eyes dry for about an hour, but I got through it. It's now that I have an actual court date for mediation for consistant visitation and antoher date temporary spousal that has me down. i feel so incrediabll guilty-I just processed the fact after the last year that this divorce is real and now I'm the one taking action when I'm not the one who intiated the process this time. I just can't handle not seeing my kids on a consistant basis the oldest I have no control over as he is an adult. but the youngest is only 14. Still I have this fear. Fear is the feeling for the last week. I jolt awake scarred shitless with my stomach in my throat all night and I've only been sleeping about 4 hours solid. Anymore, I'm ripped awake with this jolting so I have started sleeping with the TV on. What next? I'm starting to ramble and I don't feel like typing anymore-blah-blah-blah that's the mood
I know, I need to write for theraputic reason though. Oh well maybe more later on.
I know, I need to write for theraputic reason though. Oh well maybe more later on.Comments
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Getting out what you feel is important. Knowing that others care is critical. I care, and I know how it is to want to get it out and just not have the strength to type. I am glad you did a little. Hope it helps.
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The main thing here is that you didn't cry at work and you did get through it! Take it from the queen of crying at work, it does us no good! Keep your head up!
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