Journal Entry for June 5, 2007
well my day is ok so far... I'm struggling with my sex addiction. I'm being a little to open right now, but it is really driving me crazy. …
is feeling Good
I'm in high school and I'm just trying to get my life straight. I've been though alot coming up and I'm just living my life one day at a time and trying to make the right decisions. I'm a sweet person and very considerate of others. I have a bubbly personality, when I'm not sad or anything.
I love to sing, dance, cook, sew, and babysit kids. I love kids so much. I like to listen to a lot of music to help me with certain moods. I like to hang out with my friends and help people and give advice. I love helping others and making them feel special.
well my day is ok so far... I'm struggling with my sex addiction. I'm being a little to open right now, but it is really driving me crazy. …
The Relationships
He was special to me
Because I was naive
Thought I was in love
With tears running down me cheeks
My heart continues to leek
Being beaten …
A Struggle
We all have our good and bad days
Because they depend on our ways
Growing up around bad environments
With a screwed up system by governments
My …
Lately I've been feeling very lonely and angry. I'm a very nice person and from always holding my anger in, now it's coming out. The …
A Memory
I lay here on the ground
Weeping in rememberance
Thinking back on those days
When his hand would come across my face
Leaving a red print on my …
Thanks for the hug. I just wrote some thing in my journal if you want to read. You seem very sweet and you are beautiful.
Hey girl! I don't even know you but it does hurt me to see you have to go through this. You will overcome with faith and time. It will be a slow process but keep ur head up! I will keep I in my prayer. Lots of hugs!
HAPPY VALENTINE"S DAY!!!!
hey gurl did u have that baby yet? LOL i hope its a gurl cuz if it is she will be spoiled rotten like her mommy...LOL
I used to be very permiscuous and I did prostitution. I didn't love myself or my body and no one loved me either. My family doesn't love me so I feel so alone. I don't know who gave it to me, but I'm in and out of the hospital going through surgeries. I just found out last week from my lab results that I had it. I cried and cried. I'm being strong because I know I'm going to get through this.
I've been addicted to sex for 3 years and I've been trying to find things to substitute for it. I guess I became addicted to sex because of the feeling that I was looking for. I have low self esteem and I guess I do it to fill a void and also because of the pleasure I get out of it. The thing is that it also causes lots of pain for me because of the diseases and surgeries I have to go through and deal with.
I was sexually abused/raped for months when I was 10 years old by my half brother. He used to make me do things and then he would physically abuse me and I would end up with bruises.
I've had gonorrhea, clamydia, trichomoniasis, and now I'm living with HPV. I've been through two surgeries already and I have to get another one done next week to get rid of the warts. I'm just dealing with the consequences of my actions. I turned to sex to feel good about myself, get away from everything, and to deal with my stress. I thought I would never end up getting of these things, but I guess I was wrong. I'm just trying to hang in there and be strong.
I have a lot of stress and I don't know how to deal with it. I don't get angry a lot and I often hold in all of my stress and then I just end up exploding one day. I know it's not healthy, but I don't know what to do. I tried a lot of things, but sometimes those things don't work.
The doctors are telling me that I might have cervical cancer, but I'm still not sure. I'm waiting for my lab results to come back. I have HPV and they think that it will grow and progress towards cancer because I have a weak immune system.
Basically my story is the same as the others.