maggie1's Journal

Wow its been forever since Ive been on here, life has been busy to say the least- when I left off I found a new specialist for my condition and she is amazing I was on Provera for 3 weeks and it kicked my ass same side effects as the clomid so I was sticking close to home! With that money got tight so it was day to day here and that combined with the hormone mood swings it was a war zone in my house! My mother in law also had to add her 2 cents so it hit the fan with all 3 of us!! But finally we have met a happy medium that works for us all- here to hopeing !!!! 

I resently reconnected with a couple old friends who I lost touch with so its been so nice to have other people to talk to.   

So thats pretty much it, Ive really missed my DS friends a lot and Im sorry I havent been around much-but hopefully you allknow I love you!!!!!! 

Okay I went to my new doctor and she was amazing really cut and dry and already after 1 appoinment answered a bunch of my questions so for that alone I am beyond thrilled- I was also 100% honest with everything that she asked me even with my weight a topic I always "fib" about BUT if I'm not honest with her she cant help me so I held NOTHING back and it was kind of liberating!

So this is what I have been told.. I DO NOT have endometriosis!!! I DO HAVE PCOS so I can deal with that, she is very concerned about the massive blood loss all the time so I will be put on Preveria to start me on my way to some kind of relief.. I have to change my diet ( in a big way) and stay on the "path" that she starts me on.. When my blood tests come back we will then take the next step in finding more answers and remidies for me- and by then we will then see what would be benificial for us to get pregnant!! Im a bit okay very overwhelmed right now because after so many years with no answers and living like I did its alot to wrap my brain around.. Whne we were talking I said to her " You know I will do whatever I need to no matter what because then end result is so worth it , not just the possibility of getting pregnant but the total piece of mind that I can be helped!" She came back with " Well you attitude is amazing and you #1 admitted you need help, and #2 were very honest so thats no a shabby beginning!" 

Im not expecting everything to work right away but the feeling of " Im a freak of nature" isnt ringing in my ears like it used to.......And like Ive written before its just nice to have answers to my questions & fears- even if they arent the greatest things to hear they are answers all the same.....

Thanks to all of my DS friends who have let me bitch and cry about everything its been so nice to have the support on this journey!!!

Here's to hope

Maggie

Well today is my appointment with the specialist and I am a total wreck! No joke my stomach is in a not and I feel as if Im going to throw up!!!!!! For so long things have been a mess but I adapted to it and made it part of me and its so easy to bitch about things and say your going to do something about it - but when that moment comes you are a mess, at least that how I am. Tjis morning I picked a stupid fight with Dan to try and get of of my appointment thankfully it didnt work! I was going to meet him at the dr because he's leaving work early but he called me before and he's coming home and we will take 1 car.... And of course his mom is pissed at us but if it was her then the song would be different...

Wish me luck I am a total wreck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!